I'm ranting again.

The past few months have been tumultous. I've seen friendships built and break apart. Although I haven't really been affected, I'm really terrified that something will happen to ruin all the friendships we've painstakingly built up this past year. Seeing the way things are going now, it really doesn't take much to break apart a friendship. I guess we haven't really learnt how to forgive and forget, or to think carefully before we go about doing things that hurt those around us.

When someone makes a mistake, we forget about the promises we've made. Things like, "I'll always be there for you" go flying out the window. Well it's easy to say all this crap about forgiving and forgetting now, but I'm still finding it hard to move on. I think "I need more time" is becoming a lame excuse, cuz the truth is, my heart isn't really in it to move on.

I think I'm afraid to get too close to people, cuz the closer you are, the bigger your disappointment.

I had a random thought today. I realised when we're teenagers, we tend to think that we're better that what our parents think we are. We think we can do anything, and we do everything to prove it. But at my age, we tend to think we're bigger than the world. It's not so much about proving ourselves to our parents anymore. We think because we're older, we've matured and have complete control over everything. We go about proving that we know everything, and we like to think we're wiser beyond our years. We rant on about politics, relationships and love to provide advice for others we deem less experienced than us. Sadly, the only thing we've succeeded in proving is that we're wrong. We're never as smart as we think we are.

Sigh I don't really know what I'm talking about. I think I'm just tired from today, and the past week in general.

All the words that we have to say
They don't leave when the moment comes

Rag update: Welfare has improved! We had barley and 汤圆 this week! Shiok man. Lucky we had multi-talented people among us who knew how to cook hahaha. I think if it were me doing welfare, everyone in rag will die from malnutrition and obesity cuz of all the unhealthy food we dabao everyday. We have TIO (Thrash It Out) sessions during debrief also. Whoever holds the TIO stick has the right to thrash out whatever issues he/she has with anyone or anything haha. And I have a bad feeling we might not be able to finish our float in time. What with so many intricacies left undone, and with people like me who come and go as we like. Sigh. We have to work harder!! In Xiaoping's words, "喝多一点酒就可以 power up!" HAha.