The single Rose
Is now the Garden
Where all loves end
Terminate torment
Of love unsatisfied
The greater torment
Of love satisfied
End of the endless
Journey to no end
Conclusion of all that
Is inconclusible
Speech without word and
Word of no speech
Grace to the Mother
For the Garden
Where all love ends.

- T.S. Eliot, "Ash Wednesday"

I've been reading T.S. Eliot lately, and feeling really impressed by his mastery of words.

The things that get me the most excited about (besides traveling), are the moments when I discover a really great band/singer, or a really great writer. There's this huge rush of excitement where I want to read/listen to every work, that at the same time is reined in by the fear that if I consume everything too quickly I won't be able to make the moment (and joy) last. Confusing, but true haha.

And then I feel like I need to share this joy with the rest of the world, which explains the random posting of tracks/videos/excerpts (I even have another blog for this purpose). I want everyone else to experience what I'm feeling. Sadly, my social circle has different tastes, which brings us back to why I go for concerts solo. But that's another story for another day. Anyway, so when I do find a fellow 'kindred' soul, I get so excited that I'd gladly set aside whatever I'm doing (usually unimportant in the first place anyway) to send some songs over or even burn a CD.

I think the gift of song and the gift of writing is rare and to be treasured, yet meant to be shared with the rest of the world. It's amazing how an awesome song/performance can stir one's emotions and resonate something inside you didn't even know you had. It can change the mood and atmosphere of a place and person. It gives hope (and maybe sometimes drive you to depression, but in a good way haha), and succeeds where words otherwise fail. This is probably why series like "Glee" are so popular haha. Music speaks to all of us, no matter the genre. A good book/poem does the same too I think. I'm amazed by how someone I've never even met is able to put my emotions into just a few lines of wonderfully-placed words which when separate don't make sense at all.

I think I'm really just awed by the fact that we as human beings, have been created by God to be distinct from animals such that we are able to feel, to give and take these feelings, and in turn, use them to create works of art that can reach others and stir up a plethora of emotions in them. Wonderful, no? And for this I give thanks :)

I'll try
But I couldn't be better

Wow it's almost been a month! It's MARCH already! Soon it'll be April, and I'll officially be 24.

Sadly, I don't have much to show for.

It's surprising how your days pass by so quickly even when you're not doing anything. Really, they seem to just blur together. I dunno if that's good or bad.

I want a change in my life. Not just my current circumstances, but life in general and in the long term. I feel like I haven't achieved much in my 24 years of existence - maybe just completing my education? Should aiming for a great career be my goal? Cuz somehow I don't see myself doing that.

I think this idle-ness is getting to me.

And disappointingly, as much as I have been sending in job applications, I haven't received any calls for interviews. I'm starting to think those 6 months are a blemish on my record. Or maybe my phone isn't working.

The Wilderness of Manitoba - Hermit

Will you ever know me,

The way I think you should