eve of the eve

It's the eve of New Year's Eve!

This time last year, I just came back from KL with WWF. It's scary how time always manages to catch you unawares. I honestly cannot remember what happened in 2009 haha.

I don't know if it's good/bad that the past year went by relatively smoothly, to the point of being almost monotonous. But I guess it's good that nothing much has changed, except that more people have gone overseas :(

Oh well, basically I just wanted to say something on 31 December 2009 haha. I'll come back with my reflection later. Too tired to think (I took like 1 full minute just to figure out how to spell "monotonous", the m's and n's were starting to blend together). It's been a crazy week. I look forward to a good long nap this weekend :D and there's some serious bidding to do also! ARgh.

Last but not least, this is an awesome rendition of "Everytime You Go Away".





The pressure is rising
I mean it, it's binding
I've been compromising for you

oh here it goes again

I'm back to complain about work again. Sorry la, I can't complain on fb or msn cuz my boss might see :(

I MISS those days when I didn't have a care in my mind. When I could sleep however late I want, and wake up at lunch time for all I care. When the most important thing I had to worry about was where to go/who to meet. Now, my mind is either revolving around work (the immense load waiting for me everyday), or projects (another gigantic burden on my shoulders), or both. It's like my mind never had a chance to rest after twirling around the entire semester. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE MY DARN HOLIDAYS.

But what to do, I brought this all upon myself. And it's too late to turn back now. At first it was supposed to be about earning some extra $$ for grad trip, but now it looks like my grad trip might not even happen at all :( So not worth it. Note to self: Money should never be the only reason to work when you have every opportunity to slack at home.

This is the first time I've actually forgotten that it's Christmas! And I haven't written any xmas cards!! Sooner or later, I'm gonna lose this tradition. But well Christmas is not supposed to be about that warm fuzzy feeling, but more about reflecting/celebrating Christ's birth.

Seeing all those elderly people hobbling to the stage (most had to walk with canes) to get baptised during today's Hainanese service was really touching. Even though most of them were evidently not strong enough to kneel, they still did so. It's like their love for Christ is so strong that they were willing to go the whole distance in spite of their physical weaknesses. And it's really good to see the joy on their faces after being baptised. It makes me feel ashamed of those times when I've complained about serving in church. If these elderly could find it in them to make the extra step to accept Christ, what more myself, a young and able person? It's also a good reminder that we don't have to do alot to be close to Christ, we only need a willing heart :)

Ok maybe I shouldn't be complaining so much. The most I can do is to try my best to get through this period. There's a reason why the Lord opened the door to this job (no matter how painful it might be). And in spite of the hardship, there's still plenty to be learnt. Something good will come out of this. Most importantly I shouldn't forget who's got my back in all this! :)

Just when you think you're in control,
Just when you think you've got a hold,
Just when you get on a roll,
Oh here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.

I'm sick again. Irritating irritating irritating!!!

I think I can't balance work and projects. I'm not meant to multi-task. I can facebook while working, but I can't do 2 "work-s" at one time. It's tiring and it's driving me mad. All I want to do is watch TV shows, and sleep in. I don't even have time to be lazy anymore. Excuses, excuses.



There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do

Out of the goodness of his heart (and maybe pity), my bro lent me the use of his super powerful laptop for the month of December :D Oh the joy of a speedy computer without constantly being disrupted by frequent hangs, or having to wait 5 secs just to change windows. I hate the thought of going back to my ol' Fujitsu once the new sem starts :S I think this comic really summarizes how I feel towards my computer haha.

So work has been well..TIRING. I do PR (public relations) in the day, and PR (project research) at night. Good times. So far I've even made a few stupid mistakes here and there argh. After one whole sem writing 15 page reports, I don't think I'm capable of flowery descriptive vocabulary anymore. Nvm, 4 more weeeekssss. The good thing is that I sleep early and wake up even earlier. I even managed to wake up at 7am to go cycling today!

Speaking of which, today was really fulfilling although really early mornings are a pain. I'm surprised so many of us managed to make it for our 8am cycling trip :) And it was fun! Leisurely cycling (as opposed to going as far as possible, then chionging like mad to return the bikes on time) rocks. Then after that we went to this Penguin (the publisher) book sale at Singapore Expo and I got like 8 books for $41. Like totally worth it la, considering a book typically costs at least $17 outside.

So I'm still really tired (even after an afternoon nap) and really dreading work :(

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name