Monday, October 26, 2009

her morning elegance

I wish I could live my whole life in bed too.

Did you know that in France, you wish someone luck by saying "merde" which means "shit" in English. For example:

"Hey, merde." "Thanks." and

"I wish you merde."

You have to love the French.

I like my awesome new earphones. They cut off all background noise, and I constantly feel like I'm in a silent film, plus I'm able to sleep more soundly on the bus.

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears

Sunday, October 18, 2009

these words get overused.

My motivators each week:
1) TGIF. Friday!
2) Whatever meetup I have on Friday. It doesn't matter who it's with, as long as I'm away from home/school.
3) Shows: ANTM (with Kaishi, my reality tv buddy haha), Amazing Race, Fringe, HIMYM, BBT, Grey's Anatomy. It's sad that I derive much joy from fiction.
4) Sleeeeep. My sleeping habits are extremely warped, it's scary. I need to readjust during the hols :S

"(500) Days of Summer" was way better than I had imagined (it helped that the male lead was believably charming). It's a realistic portrayal of relationships, I feel. And although it didn't technically have a happy ending, at least it was hopeful. As best summarized by Nina:

"its like love, one min u staunchly believe tt u are in love with this one person for ever. u believe he/she is the one. u think once u've missed him/her u can never ever find someone like him/her. u think its the end bcos true love comes only once in a lifetime and once u missed it, its gone forever. u are willing and prepared to spend the rest of ur life with this one special person who brought light and laughter into ur otherwise gloomy, mundane, boring, life. u never knew tt life could b so much more until he/she showed up miraculously in your life on that one fateful day. u believe in fate and destiny, and possibly miracles and love. u think fate brought u and him, u and her together from millions of strangers. u think u finally found ur soulmate, and u know he loves u too. u thank god for sending someone this amazing to you and u can't ask for more.

n the next min, u realise tt its all fake. ur heart is ripped apart n u feel like a fool. u wonder if u can ever adapt to singlehood and u will never look at man/woman in the same way again. and then u pray to god for someone better to come into you life. u look at ur friends who are happily married or attached and while u truly feel happy for them, u wonder if there is any truth in it. u feel like giving up but nonetheless u don't, bcos its innate in us to dream and hope and remain as a die-hard romantic. u meet different pple and they come and go. each one u think there's mayb a chance until u pick up something and strike him off ur 'plausible' list. u wonder n u ponder. n u wait. n u wait somemore.

for what else is there left to do?

and all these love ideas we get are largely from fictional sources. novels, films, dramas, songs, poems. either from hardcore romantics or the disillusioned skeptics. For someone lying in between will not fall into our black and white area. we want something definite and consistent. we want "i love you "( forever in fine prints). n we want "for me, there is only you" (vice versa in smaller fonts). No 'buts". Regardless is the word. this is why we love promises. its proof. its affirmation. its evidence. its something we can hang onto. its belief.

and for someone, or anyone who says tt they dont believe in love. it is the pride tt is in the way.

there is no need to be embarrassed, or feel foolish, naive.

for love is real, and its here.

Isn't it?"


I think we'll never know what we want until we have it. And well, (romantic) love and happiness are subjective. Comparisons shouldn't be made. And who says you need one to have the other?

I know you feel it, too
These words get overused
When we get up and over it and over them

Sunday, October 11, 2009

LINKS is an amazing exercise in futility. It's like nothing you ever do is enough. But it's ok, one more quarter and we're done! It's do or die. But then again, I can't think of anything more we can do. LINKS exists in an illogical parallel universe.

I hate it when I'm sitting in class and I don't understand what's going on even though I'm paying attention. It makes me feel stupid (and wonder how I ever qualified for Honours).

Embarrassingly Bad Driving Incident #3298472987 was well, embarrassingly bad. I'm still waiting for the financial assessment of the damage, as if I'm not broke enough :( But I'm really grateful for the perfect timing of friends, and their assurance that nothing will happen "if you drive at 60km/h" haha :) And thinking back, it really was quite funny. Like rag all over again ("are you sure this part fits here?"). I should've taken a picture haha. But of course during that time I was literally freaking out.

Hello Sociology my friend, we finally meet after half a semester. I think you need a really really open mind to fully comprehend sociology, and think sociologically (whatever that means). It's like having a bird's eye view of society. Plus it's hard to be open when there are quite a few morally grey areas.

Assignments are da bomb. One pagers and essays about museums. Booomz!

Oooh, look at my candy store! I've got gummy bears + Fizzy Fish (thanks shuqi!), Ricolaaaa, and mints! My mugging rations hoho.

It's so easy to ask for everything you want, but so hard to be grateful for things that actually happen especially if they aren't what you had in mind. Then when you look back, you realize how much of an ingrate you were because things turned out way better beyond what you could even imagine. All you had to do was wait :) It may sound confusing, but it makes perfect sense.

But no one is asking so leave it alone
Leave it alone

Saturday, October 3, 2009

"We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are."

- Meredith, "Grey's Anatomy"

I know I know, I should have been intensely reading "Shopper's Stop" instead. It's really irritating when you know you have a lot to do, but you just can't get started cuz 1) you don't know how to, 2) there are ALWAYS other better things to do (like watching "Grey's Anatomy"), or 3) you just don't want to. Eeks.


The Chain - Ingrid Michaelson

So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore