young adults' retreat

I'm damn lazy to blog. There's nothing much going on in my life also haha. Oh well there was the young adults' retreat we had over the weekend. That was great. I learnt alot.

It was held at the Changi Village chalet, and the theme was 'Tell a Story', and true to that, we had speakers come to share their personal trials and stories. And trust me, when I say 'trial', it really is a trial. When you hear what they've gone through/are going through, you realise your own suffering pales in comparison. It really puts things in perspective. There was this lady who is married with kids but has cancer, and the guy who married his girlfriend even though she had kidney failure and all. In a way, I think they were really brave to come forward and talk to this bunch of strangers. But I'm really thankful for that, cuz I really learnt alot.

For example, the lady never once asked God 'Why me?'. Instead she said, "I know God chose me out of so many people cuz He knows I have the strength to take it." And it's true. We couldn't tell she had cancer till she said so. She's still quite cheerful and determined to live and watch her kids grow up. And most importantly, she trusts God to the point that she doesn't question Him, but leaves her life in His hands. He's in control after all, and He has reasons we cannot fathom. All we can do is to trust in His purposes.

The other guy also. Out of all the girls he can choose, he chose to marry the girl who's very sick, and whom he has to take care of for the rest of his life. This is called faithfulness at it's very best. In a sense, I guess he and his wife were made for each other. She's sick, so God sent her a man who's willing to take care of her. And for her, I think it takes alot to trust a man to be there for you always.

So yeah, it was an encouraging weekend. I also had lots of fun catching up with all the church people haha. And making new friends too.

On another note, I have 3 more weeks of work to go! ARGH. And most of my friends have already stopped working. It's quite sad lor, cuz it used to be that I couldn't find anyone to go out with cuz everyone was working, but now everyone's free except me haha. Work's getting boring also. I hate calling people! Though it's fun to meet journalists and stuff haha.



That's Ryan Adams (not to be confused with Bryan). I'm in love with him haha. Though he's quite an eccentric musician.

Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?

I hate it when people think they're better than me, and think they have a right to tell me what I should/should not do.

Who are you to judge me anyway?

And it's not like I'm gonna make the world a better place if I change. If I irk you so much, then just go away. Just don't tell me off like you have a right to do so.

It's times like these that make me wish I could go back to the US. No one expects too much from me, and I'm not pressured to do anything I don't want to. Back here, it seems like I'm being let down at every corner I turn. People disappoint me.

And I've come to the point where I don't really care anymore. I'm indifferent. Go do whatever you want, tell me whatever you want; I'll live with it.

Argh, I'm pissed.

If I told you the reasons why
Would you leave your life and ride?

i should be working

Ok I really should be working right now, but aiya, I'm super bored and sian. That's the bad thing about working at home. You get so comfortable, it puts you in the wrong frame of mind. Plus there's no one to supervise you haha. And I've been calling the same pple so many times, yet none of them answered the phone. It's damn irritating.

Anyway after reading Kaishi's blog entry about rag, I was inspired to look at all the pictures and videos we've (Boran) taken since FOC 2006, ie. China, Rag, etc. (Ya I know I should have been working.) Oh man, they brought back so many fond memories haha. And yes, I still can't believe we actually took all those retarded videos. But it's ok, I like being retarded :D And it's good to know I have retarded friends to be retarded with. I like the word 'retarded' hahaha. Ok I shall stop rambling (and being retarded).

My point is, I've been really blessed to have so many friends that I can actually click with, and are on the same wavelength, whether it is on our beliefs, values, or just the fact that we are amused by the same things. I'm not afraid to be myself around them, even if it means playing a fool. And this goes to all my friends, like Boran, WWF, PPG, and those in church.

Anyway, looking at all the Boran pictures really makes me of think of how far we've come since we first met 2 years ago at FOC. I'm glad we managed to be good friends so quickly haha. I wonder if we actually knew we were gonna be so close at the time of the videos. And even though Rag was quite traumatising and threatened to distant ourselves from each other, I'm thankful that we grew closer after everything, and I found new people to sit in lectures with :) That means you, Juli and Kaishi haha. And of course, Boss la (I realize I stopped calling her that after exchange haha). You're not just a driver to me, you know :D haha kidding. You're much much more than that :) I actually really missed all of you when I was away.

Ok well now that Kaishi is going away for exchange, and Juli's gonna graduate next year, I hope we'd still be able stick close to each other. Like when we meet up 10 years later (hopefully when we're all rich and successful muahaha), we're still able to be all retarded and spastic and be amused by the stupidest and dumbest things haha.

Wah what a mushy entry. So unlike me. Sigh, ok gotta go back to calling people. Hopefully they'd be free to entertain me now.

When you’re gone, all the colors fade
When you’re gone, no New Year’s Day parade