It's THAT time of year again. The Choosing of Modules.
Should I do 3 project-intensive modules and kill myself, for the sake of completing my REs? Or slack, and do more UEs? I'm getting confused just looking at my graduation requirements.
And I need to pull my CAP up, seriously. I wanna do Honours. So that I can delay working for another year. Haha, just kidding.
Sigh. I dunno I dunno I dunno!
I hope the module preference thingy doesn't mess up my timetable. It sounds like a nightmare, from what I've heard. I don't wanna go to school everyday haha.
Calm down, I'm calling you to say
I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe
Monday, June 30, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
no better and no worse
For some reason, I feel damn depressed if I don't have anything to do/anyone to meet up with after work. It's like I don't really have much to look forward to after work :( Sigh. I really don't want my life after graduation to be like that!! Damn those Monday blues.
But then again, I'm kinda lazy to go somewhere haah. And I save money by staying home. Oh well.
Once again, I stress on the need to GET A NEW LAPTOP. (*&%(@*^%( thing!!! WHY ON EARTH DOES IT KEEP HANGING AND DYING ON ME?!?! Oh and that day I accidentally dropped it (ok it's my fault too) and now the CD slot thing is hanging out hahah. It's pathetic really. I think I should back up my stuff on my external hard drive, then leave my laptop somewhere and wait for someone to steal it so I can get a new one haha!! Ok, that's mean. I still love my laptop. In any case, someone please donate a new laptop to me thanks :D (Preferably a Mac :D:D)
But, I wanna complain about the Internet at home also. It's super s l o o o o o w.... Cannot la, like that. If I work from home how?? I won't be able to get anything done!! And going out is expensive! Plus that time Wireless@SG banned me from the network cuz apparently, I was using too much -.-
It's sad how nothing I own works properly :(
Haha ok, I think I'm done with complaining for now. Argh, I can't wait for Friday!!
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
But then again, I'm kinda lazy to go somewhere haah. And I save money by staying home. Oh well.
Once again, I stress on the need to GET A NEW LAPTOP. (*&%(@*^%( thing!!! WHY ON EARTH DOES IT KEEP HANGING AND DYING ON ME?!?! Oh and that day I accidentally dropped it (ok it's my fault too) and now the CD slot thing is hanging out hahah. It's pathetic really. I think I should back up my stuff on my external hard drive, then leave my laptop somewhere and wait for someone to steal it so I can get a new one haha!! Ok, that's mean. I still love my laptop. In any case, someone please donate a new laptop to me thanks :D (Preferably a Mac :D:D)
But, I wanna complain about the Internet at home also. It's super s l o o o o o w.... Cannot la, like that. If I work from home how?? I won't be able to get anything done!! And going out is expensive! Plus that time Wireless@SG banned me from the network cuz apparently, I was using too much -.-
It's sad how nothing I own works properly :(
Haha ok, I think I'm done with complaining for now. Argh, I can't wait for Friday!!
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
Saturday, June 21, 2008
round-a-bout
So after days of lamenting about leading a meaningless life, I've finally found a job! I'm currently working for a local PR firm as an intern. It's a new company, so no one's heard of it before haha. But so far I'm having fun (I'm only 2 days into the job). It's something totally different.
For one, there isn't any fixed office for me to go to. They have an address in Orchard, but that's only for collecting mail haha. The 2 bosses work from home, and from anywhere actually, since they're always running around Singapore meeting clients and stuff. Therefore, I work from home too haha. Which is really cool. For example, yesterday I was just following my boss and running around everywhere with her. From Buangkok to Katong, and to Toa Payoh, then to Kaki Bukit. And today, I didn't even get to see my boss. She just gave me some stuff to do and left me alone haha. But I still had to run around Singapore. Oh well at least I got to have lunch with my friends at Raffles Place haha.
Basically my job scope involves writing press releases, compiling lists of media contacts (this is quite a pain actually), and calling journalists and stuff. And of course, running around the whole of Singapore. The good thing is that it's different from what my other friends are doing at their internships. Everyday is different, and you don't do the same things all the time. I get to travel, and not stay behind a computer 9 hours a day. And I get to meet lots of people. I get to stay at home also! But it's not that great actually, cuz I need LOTS of discipline to make sure I get up on time (my official working hours are from 9am-6pm), since there's no where for me to go. It doesn't actually feel like I'm working haha. But yeah, it's also damn tiring to run around everywhere.
To me, I don't really think it's important to work for a reputable company doing the same things as other interns everywhere. Of course I want the prestige and all, but I'd rather learn, and expose myself more to different things. Sure, it's embarrassing to be going around doing weird and crazy things in the name of PR, but it's different and fun, if you look at it positively haha. I don't learn the hard skills, but I might be able to gain some soft skills. And at least then I'll know what I want/not want to do in the future after graduation. You only get to be a PR intern once, after all haha. I can sit behind a desk for the next 40 years of my life.
Anyway. After 2 days, I realise I need:
1. A better laptop. This one is stupid. It keeps hanging and it's freaking slow. I can't do too many things on it at one time, which sucks, cuz a big part of the job is to do many, many things at one go.
2. My ipod at all times. I deal with loneliness by listening to music haha. Plus there's the travelling.
3. My phone. My boss expects me to be on standby for any assignments, from 9am - 6pm haha. Sigh no slacking.
4. A car. It's tiring to take the train and bus. And it's not very nice to cab around, when there're other cheaper forms of public transport, which just makes me more tired haha. At least I can still claim my transport fees from the company.
Ok I hope I'll be able to learn more quickly in the next few weeks, and be an asset, not liability, to the company haha.
Don't you be a round-a-bout
Not another round-a-bout
We've come this far
Yet back to the start
Don't you be a round-a-bout
For one, there isn't any fixed office for me to go to. They have an address in Orchard, but that's only for collecting mail haha. The 2 bosses work from home, and from anywhere actually, since they're always running around Singapore meeting clients and stuff. Therefore, I work from home too haha. Which is really cool. For example, yesterday I was just following my boss and running around everywhere with her. From Buangkok to Katong, and to Toa Payoh, then to Kaki Bukit. And today, I didn't even get to see my boss. She just gave me some stuff to do and left me alone haha. But I still had to run around Singapore. Oh well at least I got to have lunch with my friends at Raffles Place haha.
Basically my job scope involves writing press releases, compiling lists of media contacts (this is quite a pain actually), and calling journalists and stuff. And of course, running around the whole of Singapore. The good thing is that it's different from what my other friends are doing at their internships. Everyday is different, and you don't do the same things all the time. I get to travel, and not stay behind a computer 9 hours a day. And I get to meet lots of people. I get to stay at home also! But it's not that great actually, cuz I need LOTS of discipline to make sure I get up on time (my official working hours are from 9am-6pm), since there's no where for me to go. It doesn't actually feel like I'm working haha. But yeah, it's also damn tiring to run around everywhere.
To me, I don't really think it's important to work for a reputable company doing the same things as other interns everywhere. Of course I want the prestige and all, but I'd rather learn, and expose myself more to different things. Sure, it's embarrassing to be going around doing weird and crazy things in the name of PR, but it's different and fun, if you look at it positively haha. I don't learn the hard skills, but I might be able to gain some soft skills. And at least then I'll know what I want/not want to do in the future after graduation. You only get to be a PR intern once, after all haha. I can sit behind a desk for the next 40 years of my life.
Anyway. After 2 days, I realise I need:
1. A better laptop. This one is stupid. It keeps hanging and it's freaking slow. I can't do too many things on it at one time, which sucks, cuz a big part of the job is to do many, many things at one go.
2. My ipod at all times. I deal with loneliness by listening to music haha. Plus there's the travelling.
3. My phone. My boss expects me to be on standby for any assignments, from 9am - 6pm haha. Sigh no slacking.
4. A car. It's tiring to take the train and bus. And it's not very nice to cab around, when there're other cheaper forms of public transport, which just makes me more tired haha. At least I can still claim my transport fees from the company.
Ok I hope I'll be able to learn more quickly in the next few weeks, and be an asset, not liability, to the company haha.
Don't you be a round-a-bout
Not another round-a-bout
We've come this far
Yet back to the start
Don't you be a round-a-bout
Thursday, June 12, 2008
the detail's in the fabric
What makes me sad:
1. Disappointments.
2. When someone doesn't understand me, and frustration turns into sadness.
3. When I feel inferior.
4. Guilt.
5. Loneliness.
6. When I miss someone (no one in particular, in case any of you are wondering). Especially when I miss someone, like when I left Texas in May :(
7. Boredom (speaking of which, I really need a job now. Still looking for one though. Argh!)
When I'm sad I:
1. Read.
2. Listen to music.
3. Crave for company.
4. Eat (trying not to, though)
5. Sleep.
6. Blog.
7. Drink beer. Haha just kidding.
If it's a broken part replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
1. Disappointments.
2. When someone doesn't understand me, and frustration turns into sadness.
3. When I feel inferior.
4. Guilt.
5. Loneliness.
6. When I miss someone (no one in particular, in case any of you are wondering). Especially when I miss someone, like when I left Texas in May :(
7. Boredom (speaking of which, I really need a job now. Still looking for one though. Argh!)
When I'm sad I:
1. Read.
2. Listen to music.
3. Crave for company.
4. Eat (trying not to, though)
5. Sleep.
6. Blog.
7. Drink beer. Haha just kidding.
If it's a broken part replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
Saturday, June 7, 2008
life goes on
I crave the freedom I had in the US. The open-ness. I can be whoever I wanna be and no one will care or look at me any differently. I feel so constrained here. Probably because over here, the expectations people have of me are well set out and I have to meet them. In the US, I make my own expectations. I don't have to answer to anyone except myself. And of course, there's so much more to do over there. The Americans always manage to find something to amuse themselves with haha.
The past 5 months feel like a dream. And like waking up from a dream, I can barely remember most of what happened, just that it was great and I never want it to end. Sigh reality sucks. My time there has also got me thinking about some things. Like the purpose of life, and the pointlessness of having to live life according to what society thinks is the road to being successful. What is being successful anyway?
Then again, there's the matter of placing too much thought into everything. Not that one shouldn't think or ponder, but too much of it becomes stifling I think. Your worldview becomes a warped perception of the truth, when it's something that should be taken at face value in the first place.
Ah, I think I'm becoming too bored at home.
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around
The past 5 months feel like a dream. And like waking up from a dream, I can barely remember most of what happened, just that it was great and I never want it to end. Sigh reality sucks. My time there has also got me thinking about some things. Like the purpose of life, and the pointlessness of having to live life according to what society thinks is the road to being successful. What is being successful anyway?
Then again, there's the matter of placing too much thought into everything. Not that one shouldn't think or ponder, but too much of it becomes stifling I think. Your worldview becomes a warped perception of the truth, when it's something that should be taken at face value in the first place.
Ah, I think I'm becoming too bored at home.
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
left and leaving
So I'm finally back in Singapore! In spite of all the things I've said about not wanting to come back, I can't help but feel a sense of relief and happiness when the plane touched down. Even seeing the SIA air stewardesses on board made me feel slightly better cuz it means I'm one step closer to home. And I can honestly say that I was really glad to see my dad waiting for me at the gate in the airport.
It's nice to see that nothing much has changed. To see the same old trees lining the same old highway. Walking through the rooms in my house, and seeing the same old things (or crap) in the same places where I left them 5 months ago. And of course, it was really nice to see my dog again :) He still remembers me!
It was nice meeting up with Shuqi and Huajia today also. Talking to them felt like I never left at all. I'm really looking forward to meeting up with the others also, especially WWF haha. Except that Jamie is in the US, and Janice is still in London pfft.
The jet lag is still killing me, though it wasn't as bad as when I just reached the US. I'm trying my best to adjust back to a more normal sleeping habit. And that means not waking up at 7am haha.
The bad thing about coming back is that I have loads to unpack, and lots of shit to sift through. I also need to find a job. Argh. Plus I need to mentally prepare myself for life back in NUS. Time to mug properly. No more slacking and skipping classes haha. Sad day.
In conclusion, it's nice to be back. My time in the US was an adventure, and I've really learnt alot. I've learnt to rely on myself, and about the importance of the people around you. I've also learnt that everyone is different, yet despite our different backgrounds, we can still click really well together. And that one should always be open to other cultures and opinions, and be willing to move out of their comfort zone. That's almost the best way to learn anything, I guess. Most importantly, I thank the Lord for bringing me this far. For the opportunity to travel this far away from the familiar. For seeing me through every obstacle I ever faced there. And of course, for the wonderful experiences I've had.
But I still miss the US, and the people back there. The problem with a semester-long exchange is that, once you start adjusting and really have fun, it's time for you to leave :( Which sucks. I really miss my roommate, and Lauren, and the French. Chatting with them online doesn't help, especially when my roommate says things like, "what will i do without you. who will i dance with and who will tell me i'm stupid?" And the sadder thing is that, I know that my memories of them will fade with time, and when all of us get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life. But I shall not think so much, and just go with the flow. One day at a time.
All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.
It's nice to see that nothing much has changed. To see the same old trees lining the same old highway. Walking through the rooms in my house, and seeing the same old things (or crap) in the same places where I left them 5 months ago. And of course, it was really nice to see my dog again :) He still remembers me!
It was nice meeting up with Shuqi and Huajia today also. Talking to them felt like I never left at all. I'm really looking forward to meeting up with the others also, especially WWF haha. Except that Jamie is in the US, and Janice is still in London pfft.
The jet lag is still killing me, though it wasn't as bad as when I just reached the US. I'm trying my best to adjust back to a more normal sleeping habit. And that means not waking up at 7am haha.
The bad thing about coming back is that I have loads to unpack, and lots of shit to sift through. I also need to find a job. Argh. Plus I need to mentally prepare myself for life back in NUS. Time to mug properly. No more slacking and skipping classes haha. Sad day.
In conclusion, it's nice to be back. My time in the US was an adventure, and I've really learnt alot. I've learnt to rely on myself, and about the importance of the people around you. I've also learnt that everyone is different, yet despite our different backgrounds, we can still click really well together. And that one should always be open to other cultures and opinions, and be willing to move out of their comfort zone. That's almost the best way to learn anything, I guess. Most importantly, I thank the Lord for bringing me this far. For the opportunity to travel this far away from the familiar. For seeing me through every obstacle I ever faced there. And of course, for the wonderful experiences I've had.
But I still miss the US, and the people back there. The problem with a semester-long exchange is that, once you start adjusting and really have fun, it's time for you to leave :( Which sucks. I really miss my roommate, and Lauren, and the French. Chatting with them online doesn't help, especially when my roommate says things like, "what will i do without you. who will i dance with and who will tell me i'm stupid?" And the sadder thing is that, I know that my memories of them will fade with time, and when all of us get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life. But I shall not think so much, and just go with the flow. One day at a time.
All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.
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