And so school has finally started. I wonder where my 3 months of holidays went to... They seemed to have passed by in a blur. And you'd think 3 months is a very long time. Now I know it's definitely not haha.

Probably cuz I spent half of my hols in school. So that when I went to school on Mon, I didn't feel the unfamiliarity of stepping back into the place. Instead it felt just like any other day, cuz I still see the same faces I've been seeing 24/7 for the past month haha.

But of course you can't help but feel that things have changed with some people. You're no longer sitting beside the same people you sat with last semester. New friendships have been formed, older friendships have been strengthened and some other friendships have been abandoned. I'm happy about having new people to sit next to, but I still feel a sense of loss over those that have been left out in the cold. I wonder if they ever predicted 3 months ago, that they'd be sitting outside the fray. That the mistakes they'd make will have such severe consequences.

In a sense, I guess humans being humans are hard to forgive and even harder to forget. I think sometimes our self-righteousness gets in the way of our ability to empathise with others. We think that because we can deal with situations better than them we have the right to judge them and we put ourselves on a higher pedestal than them. It's not fair I know, but I'm guilty of that sometimes haha. At least I've learnt quite a few things during this hols. Things like what to say and what not to say in front of certain people.

Oh well. I'm just sad that things have to turn out this way. In a way, it's just like being back in secondary school. But then again, things weren't so complicated then. The good thing from all this is that at least I know who are the ones whom I can really trust :)

And speaking about school, I'm NOT prepared!! I think I'm currently still in lala mode haha. It must be cuz after associating school with FOC and rag for 2 months, I'm finding it hard to associate it with an academic institution haha. Like what it's supposed to be.

And I just got a haircut, and now I look damn kok. Sigh.

Update: Omg I'm damn pissed and frustrated right now. FFFFFF. I went to school for absolutely nothing! I hate CORS, and the damn bidding system that got me into this freaking mess. I never thought there'd be a day where I'll be so desperate to study something. I'm practically begging for my modules. ARGH. Shit. It's so unfair.

Oh, if you only knew.
If I could I'll take you with me but I'm here and you're there.