pick me up

"The fact is always obvious much too late, but the most singular difference between happiness and joy is that happiness is a solid and joy a liquid."
- J.D. Salinger, "Nine Stories"

I've never really understood what that quote meant. To me, it can mean that happiness is more substantial than joy. On the other hand, it can also mean that joy is able to take on any form, like how a liquid is able to conform to the shape of any container it is put in. I choose to believe it is the latter.

But I haven't been able to find pure joy yet. The ability to be happy in whatever circumstance I find myself in, whether good or bad. To find a bigger meaning behind everything that happens in my life. So far, my happiness has largely been dependent on the situation I'm in, which is quite worrying because I wonder what will become of me when I start working. I can't imagine going to the same place everyday, at the same time, to see the same people, and to do the same mundane tasks over and over again. For the rest of my life. It's terrifying. And I don't ever wanna live like that.

So I guess the only thing I can do, is not so much to change the situation around me, but to change myself and my attitude towards life. If I can find joy in the little things around me, and give thanks for everything life throws at me (including all the disgusting bits), then I guess that will make everyday seem a little brighter.



I still can't get over Ryan Adams haha. It's like a different experience everytime I listen to his songs.

I wish you would
Come pick me up