used to this

A random thought: I wish I could go back to the US. You know, one day I just might migrate there haha. Just for the sake of experiencing different stuff, like a different weather, different people, a different way of life. It's ironic, cuz instead of being contented that I've seen so much in just 6 months during exchange, I've become greedy for more. There's something to be said about wandering around a foreign city all by yourself, not caring much about getting lost cuz there's too much to see to worry about directions. Yeah, that's what I felt like in New York haha. It was exhilirating.

Singapore is boring. And I'm restless, and itching for something more. There has to be more than this.

But I don't have the means to keep flying everywhere. No point being envious of others. But I think I'm probably gonna fly off to somewhere different every chance I've got, after I start working haha.

Another thought. I realize I like to build my hopes on people, only to end up getting disappointed. Is it because my expectations were too high, or is it because people just disappoint in general? I mean ok, I do disappoint others as well, and unknowingly sometimes. Argh I've never been able to figure this out.

So I guess what I can do is to just move past it, and learn. It's a pity that things have to turn out this way, but I can't let this go, so I can't see any other way. But it's ok, I'll get used to this.

It's the nature of the experiment
It's the patterns of my temperament