And you know, I think I had an inkling that something like this will come my way, from all the hints and signals that have been coming recently, and that I've chosen to ignore. But having an inkling wasn't enough I guess. I suppose I'm in a state of shock right now. The things I think I know, are never what they seem to be. And the people that I thought I knew, I realize I never knew at all. I just keep getting disappointed at every turn.
I'm probably making too big of a deal out of this, but this is who I am. So don't trivialize my feelings, and think I'll be ok with just a snap of your fingers. I will be fine, but not now.
Last time, I was able to turn this into a driving force in my work, as a means to distract myself, but now I can't seem to be able to find anything good out of this.
So what should I do? Keep hoping that I'll be better tomorrow? That time will pass quickly, and I'll be ok again?
I don't know. But what I do know, is that I do not want a repeat of what I went through. It was far too much, and I will not go back there again. Lord, I really need you right now.
Make it easy
Make this easy
It's not as happy as it seems
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