leaving

I can't believe I'm leaving already. It's too... soon. I feel a bit taken by surprise haha. On one hand, I'm kinda looking forward to the new experiences. On the other hand, I feel overwhelmed with worry and anxiety. I keep imagining bad things happening to me. And I'm extremely terrified of loneliness. I really wished my mum had agreed to go with me :( Being alone makes things so much harder.

Anyway, it's the new year already! Wow, I wonder where 2007 went to haha. It's been a great year for me :) I've had so many wonderful experiences. And I probably wouldn't have come so far if not for the grace of God, and of course, my friends :) You people are one of the best things to happen to me!

Although I've had my share of disappointments, regrets, and misunderstandings, I'm glad I came through all of it stronger and better. I've learnt so much. Things like using my brain to think before saying anything stupid, controlling my emotions (and temper), and the pointlessness of envy and anger. I've done and said hurtful things to those around me, and I regret everything. I'm also very thankful that everything has been forgiven and friendships have not been lost.

In the coming year, I really hope for a smooth semester ahead during my exchange. That I'll have a safe trip there, and back. That I'll cherish all the experiences, whether good or bad. That I'll make lots of friends. And of course, that I'll grow closer to God. I need to remember to have faith in His promises. He is the God of my past, present and future, and He will watch my coming and going like He has the past years of my life.

I'll be turning 21 also, and entering adulthood, a new phase in my life. It's quite scary if you think about it haha. But I guess it also means new experiences.

Ok, I'm off to pack again. Somehow I keep getting the feeling that I've forgotten something. Eeks. I'll really miss all of my friends! Especially Boran, you guys have made my past 1 and a half year in NUS so much better :) And the surprise cake I received last night only makes me realise how much I'm leaving behind.

Thanks for a wonderful December :) Remember to keep in touch! I'll try to update as much as possible haha.

And pray for me yup?