"concern"

Why are we letting a perfectly well friendship go to pieces over a small misunderstanding? Ok maybe it wasn't small, more like years of accumulated misunderstandings. I realise humans are hard to forgive. You make a mistake and others will always use that mistake as a means to judge you. They might say you're forgiven, but it's all lip service. Of course you're never really forgiven. Others will always be wary of you, always watching and waiting for you to make the same mistake.

Anyway, is friendship based on common topics to talk about? And when there isn't anything in common left between each other, does this friendship go stale? Sure, you become friends because of something you have in common, like being in the same class, but surely you don't drift apart just cuz you're in different places?

If friendship is based on just having something in common, and not care and concern for each other, then it really isn't worth keeping. And don't say things like, "it's her fault that she's like that". It does take two hands to clap, so the blame can't all lie with the other party. Maybe sometimes we should examine ourselves first before putting all the blame on others. True friends accept you for who you are, but not when who you are is constantly jarring on their nerves. You don't have to change, you just have to learn to rein in that aspect of your character when you're around people who cannot stand it. Cuz honestly, sometimes even I get sick of it.

And yes I do believe in genuine concern. Heck, I've seen it. Maybe you don't know, cuz you haven't shown it to others. The world isn't as realistic as you make it out to be.

Ok I think I'm being increasingly direct with each sentence I type but I need to talk about this before I explode. I hate, no, I loathe it, when people like to ask for my results for comparisons sake. Don't give me nonsense like being concerned and stuff. Cuz if you are, I can tell. And believe me, you are nowhere near being concerned.

I can't believe I'm doing this tit-for-tat shit. It's childish.

And damn, I have freaking conjunctivitis in my right eye. And a flu. And a cough. Kns. I better recover before camp!! I can't wait for it to be over man.