5 countries in 24 days

I'm leaving on a jet plane!

Going to Europe is a stressful affair. Maybe cuz it's just the 2 of us girls. You have to take extra precautions and be extra kiasu about everything. Now I start to really treasure the presence of a guy haha. Guys are less blur, more streetsmart, better at directions and they can help carry bags! Now the 2 of us have to rely only each other :S Talk about blind leading the blind haha.

I pray that we'd be safe from accidents, pickpockets/crime, any mishaps. Even if anything happens, hope we'd get through it unscathed and that things will work out nicely. And also that I'd be able to survive 3 weeks of trekking around Europe with my giant backpack. I foresee I might lose weight on this trip haha. Most importantly, we need to have FUN! I look forward to all the sights and sounds we're gonna experience! :) But not receiving my results haha.

See you all soon! :)

What makes you think I'm enjoying being led to the flood?
We've got another thing coming undone

CP feels like a million years ago.

The presentation is over (albeit not as well as I would've liked) and I'm done crapping my personal reflections and (largely figmented) individual log. All in all, that's about the most crapping I've done in my four years in NUS.

Strangely, I don't feel very exhilirated that I'm all done with school. Maybe it's like what Kaishi said, the whole world has moved on without us while we were still stuck in the CP twilight zone.

Now, planning for Europe has taken over CP's place in my life, and it's quickly burning a massive hole in my pocket :S Gahh. So many things to do! And I'm starting to get a bit worried about the 2 of us travelling. Have to worry about pickpockets, getting lost, having not enough money, random volcanic eruptions, internal conflicts with each other etc.

What a daunting trip haha. But I really pray that everything will turn out well in the end! And we need everyone's prayers too!

Another pressing concern is my unemployed status. Urghh. Finding a job is one of those things which you know you gotta do, but you just don't want to (like everything else). Can I please not move on with my life so quickly?

Sometimes it's really hard to differentiate between what my heart wants, and what God wants for me. How do I tell which is which? If something feels good, does that mean it's right? I'm just afraid of facing up to the consequences of a bad decision. At the same time, I don't want to let go of something good (but again, how do I know?). I think I just really need to trust in God's plan for me.

Sigh, why is it that I still have so many worries after CP??



One by one we give each other away

sunrise

The week of 26 April 2010 shall henceforth officially be annually commemorated as "CP Week", aka the week I gave up my life for CP. Actually I don't think it's just a week, more like the whole month of April.

And now it's finally done, and submitted!! Albeit after countless delays.

So chio hor hahaha :D We decided to go the extra mile and soft-bounded our 300 pages worth of crap. With a shiny cover to boot muahaha. Looks darn professional hor. Hopefully our chio report will get us an A haha.

But printing it was a total nightmare. Everytime we print something, some random errors will surface and we'd have to reprint. I think a whole forest died to support our endeavours. Then we'd have to sort everything out in order. Problems with the printer didn't help. But it was a hilarious sight. 2 girls kneeling in front of each printer, amidst a sea of scattered paper, pleading with them to work properly hahah.

Honestly, I can barely remember what happened during the week. Only hours and hours sitting in Boss' living room writing and writing and writing.. (Theme song no. 1: "Just keep writing, just keep writing..") Then reading and reading and reading. Interspersed with cursing and swearing and crazy conversations with each other/myself. During the past week home became a hotel cuz I was only back to sleep and bathe haha. How sad.

Seriously, CP requires a whole range of skills. Writing, crapping (using cheem words to mask your ignorance and hope that no one will realize that you have no idea what you're saying), making nice charts/diagrams (same reason), formatting (I hate Word.), being a photocopy auntie, and even requires us to be couriers to deliver our report to the prof's house personally (-.-).

I'm just glad I've got a bunch of friends as groupmates for support and entertainment haha.

But it's worth it!! Now on to presentation!! Yucks. It's gonna be tougher to hide our ignorance for this one. Just hope the company directors won't spot any glaring errors :S

Then it's FREEEEDOM!! (and job applications yucks yucks yucks)

Finishing CP is like seeing the sunrise again haha. Ok I'm exaggerating, but I'm just really relieved cuz I can finally move on with life :)

All the very best of us
String ourselves up for love

Apart from the fact that I'm seeing stars, my head is killing me and I'm barely making any sense, I'm just immensely RELIEVED.

33 hours (straight) of work, 3 hours of sleep and we've got 300 pages of report. It's far from over but at least we've got something to hand in haha. I just hope we don't have to do a major overhaul of our report after the prof gives his feedback :S CP is a nightmare. I can barely remember what happened in the past week, except for endless days of facing MS Word with textbooks open around me. I NEED 29 APRIL TO COME SOON. Actually 3 May, cuz we have to do a presentation also *#(*$&(@*#&$

The only good thing was that I'm doing it with friends so it's more bearable :) Especially when we start fantasizing about life without CP, or start comparing it with other painful events in our "would you rather.." game haha. For example:

"Would you rather do rag or do CP?"
"Would you rather kiss XX or do CP?"

As you can tell, on a pain scale of 10, CP ranks like 15 or 20.

Now I've got 2 exams to study for in 2 days urgh. King Lear is back to haunt me.

Oh and I've got like $7.50 worth of library overdue fines to clear yucks.

And I hope the Iceland volcano with the name I can't pronounce will finally stop erupting before May! Or at least erupt after June haha.



You've been hittin' the heartbrakes hard.
It ain't no use, cause we're still gonna crash

waiting for

I'm paying the price for my procrastination. I just hope it's not too big a price to pay.

But curiously, I don't really regret all those time wasted. Or maybe not yet.

23 is a big number that I'm not sure if I can live up to. It means bigger responsibilities and expectations. Yet here I am, wholly content with my underachieving self.

Argh. I hate thisssss. But if I survive this I know I can survive anything.

And I'm waiting for the day
What am I waiting for?

april's fool

I have achieved the pinnacle of slack-titude!

I really need to push myself harder to do things I don't wanna do (hint: starts with "C", ends with "P"). Sigh. But oh man, what have we brought upon ourselves?? This boring BORING project about a company that doesn't really seem to have any issues (or at least any that they want us to know about).

I'm tired from doing nothing. Well, not really nothing if you count driving around the Central-South area of Singapore, getting lost and doing several illegal U-turns haha.

Oh it's April Fool's Day. Or rather, I'm April's fool because I didn't think it'd come so quickly.

I count the steps from where I am
To where I started
I would have let you
I would have let you leave

Why oh why did I decide to take Intro to Lit Studies??

I thought I could translate my love for reading into grades, but I only just realized my love is shallow. What sounds nice and insightful does not mean it's easy to analyse or write about. Like form, rhymes, rhythm?? What talking you??

Like that means like that la, what you want?! How am I supposed to know what the poet is trying to say?

Conversation of the week:

Pauline says:
doing other modules' work makes me feel like im cheating on CP
adelyne. says:
cp is like the neglected wife, while we go around cheating with other modules haha
Pauline says:
HAHA
the other modules are the mistresses
hahahah
adelyne. says:
hahah it's time to go back to our first love!
not really love
but no choice
Pauline says:
haha
forced marriage
adelyne. says:
can divorce after april haha
Pauline says:
hahaha
ya
tsk
adelyne. says:
we're pathetic hahah
Pauline says:
yes

Welcome to my sad sad life. I can't wait for April to be over (even though it's my birthday month) (and March isn't even over yet right)!

You're like an old perfume
That brings back memories
That old, forgotten tune
That I now recall