CP feels like a million years ago.

The presentation is over (albeit not as well as I would've liked) and I'm done crapping my personal reflections and (largely figmented) individual log. All in all, that's about the most crapping I've done in my four years in NUS.

Strangely, I don't feel very exhilirated that I'm all done with school. Maybe it's like what Kaishi said, the whole world has moved on without us while we were still stuck in the CP twilight zone.

Now, planning for Europe has taken over CP's place in my life, and it's quickly burning a massive hole in my pocket :S Gahh. So many things to do! And I'm starting to get a bit worried about the 2 of us travelling. Have to worry about pickpockets, getting lost, having not enough money, random volcanic eruptions, internal conflicts with each other etc.

What a daunting trip haha. But I really pray that everything will turn out well in the end! And we need everyone's prayers too!

Another pressing concern is my unemployed status. Urghh. Finding a job is one of those things which you know you gotta do, but you just don't want to (like everything else). Can I please not move on with my life so quickly?

Sometimes it's really hard to differentiate between what my heart wants, and what God wants for me. How do I tell which is which? If something feels good, does that mean it's right? I'm just afraid of facing up to the consequences of a bad decision. At the same time, I don't want to let go of something good (but again, how do I know?). I think I just really need to trust in God's plan for me.

Sigh, why is it that I still have so many worries after CP??



One by one we give each other away