This term break, I have officially achieved nothing, except to enjoy life to the fullest. Which is the best achievement out of all the 6 recess weeks I've ever had, cuz this is the happiest term break ever haha.
Even the visit to the Peranakan Museum (for school, don't ask) yesterday barely yielded anything. At least I now know Peranakans have a fondness for giant bling, and giant porcelain pots. Being a (an?) NUS student is beneficial because of all the discounts and free entry into museums. Therefore I aim to visit all the museums in Singapore (51 altogether!) before I graduate haha.
I feel like I'm in primary school again, getting the I-don't-wanna-go-to-school-tomorrow syndrome. Especially since F1 increased my travelling time by half an hour. Seriously, what's so nice about seeing a bunch of ugly cars zoom around the track 61 times??
I would like to apply for jobs, but the career services website isn't cooperating :S
What if I fall and hurt myself? Would you know how to fix me What if I went and lost myself? Would you know where to find me If I forgot who I am, would you please remind me oh? Cause without you things go hazy
Monday, September 21, 2009
It's term break! But term break is no break. It just means you have more time to do case studies, assignments and projects. It also gives you time to prepare yourself for hell when school reopens. All the submissions! Surprisingly, this term break is relatively less packed than previous breaks, maybe cuz I have fewer projects.
I've been slacking this past weekend: sleeping, watching shows (Fringe and ANTM!), sleeping, going out, sleeping. Speaking of shows, ANTM's theme this cycle is "petite". Apparently girls my height are considered short in the model industry O.O Tyra Banks must be a towering giant. My favourite shows are starting this week too! "Big Bang Theory" and "How I Met Your Mother"! I'm tempted to start watching other shows too, but I'm afraid I'll just get drawn into the deep dark hole and never return.
Sigh I look at my assignments and feel sad, so I put them away and start slacking again. I think I'll only feel the urgency nearer the end of the week haha. But actually I think I should use this week to get started on my assignments (12-page case study!) and catch up on webcasts :S A student's life is no life.
French tutor: "Dancing iz important! Everyone should dance! Zat's 'ow you release all ze tension and passion in your body, uzzerwise it's released as violence! Ah well, but if you don't dance, then sex works also."
Class: !!!
All of the things I thought were so easy Just got harder and harder each day
This is home, truly. Where I know I must be. Where projects wait for me. Where assignments always flow.
This is home, surely. As my groupmates tell me. This is where I won't be alone. For this is where I hate to be home.
- Xie Kaishi
Next week is horrible. Actually every week is horrible, just that next week is gonna be horribly horrible. And I'm starting to feel the effects of my bad sleeping habits urgh.
That secret that you know But don't know how to tell
Sunday, August 30, 2009
How to tell a Year 1 student from a Year 4 one:
1) Year 1s look fresh. No wonder they're known as "freshmen". They look carefree and innocent (naive).
2) You hear more laughter from the Year 1s.
3) Year 4s have distinct eye bags.
4) Year 1s' conversations usually involve stuff about bus services, school locations, and mostly about getting lost. Year 4s complain about projects, assignments, fyp, projects, assignments, fyp, projects etc.
5) Year 1s are free enough to play poker in school. (Though I once played 8 straight hours of Bridge in Year 2 hoho.)
6) Year 1s tend to give Year 4s looks of horror/fascination once they discover our seniority. Yes, we're seriously endangered, like dinosaurs. But it's amusing.
Haha just some curious observations in school. I think your "Year 1 radar" becomes most accurate when you're in Year 4. Mostly because you're envious of them :( It wasn't so long ago when I was a blur Year 1 myself. Wah but it's scary how fast time has passed :S
So last week, I left school past 8pm for 3 days and had my dinner/supper at 10pm. Nice. Considering that I'm barely 1/3 into the semester. I might have to start renting an apartment near campus soon. Actually I don't mind staying so late, as long as I keep my free day. Those are extremely sacred.
It's good to meet up with friends and trade horror stories about our miserable lives, and try to outdo one another. We make each other feel better about ourselves haha. It's also nice to be able to speak freely and voice your innermost thoughts and opinions, and know you have people who empathise and understand you. After unloading all your crap and burdens, you feel better able to face the world again :)
I feel really guilty for slacking my entire day away yesterday. It was supposed to be one of those rare days where I can spend the whole day clearing work. Instead I was basking in the glorious light of having a day all for myself. Then it's panic! (in the disco) on Sunday and the rest of the week, till next Saturday. It's a horrible cycle.
Ok tata, gotta go transcribe interviews in Chinese. Urgh.
"Through all this ordeal his root horror had been isolation, and there are no words to express the abyss between isolation and having one ally. It may be conceded to the mathematicians that four is twice two. But two is not twice one; two is two thousand times one. That is why, in spite of a hundred disadvantages, the world will always return to monogamy."
- G.K. Chesterton, "The Man Who Was Thursday"
Oh, desire can cause heart attacks Oh, desire, it won't bring you back
Monday, August 17, 2009
After years of sending off countless friends overseas, and countless trips to Changi Airport, you'd think I'd have been used to sending another friend off. But no. I think it just gets harder everytime :( Once again, I must ask, "Why can't everyone just stay here and be happy?" Or rather, "WHY CAN'T I GO OVERSEAS TOO??"
Ah, but well, you can't have everything you want. I have to be happy for my friends who are off pursuing greener pastures. I just don't like the feeling of being left behind. I haven't felt this sad about a friend leaving since Janice left, but I guess I'll get over it soon (amidst the mountain of schoolwork).
So here's to Jamie: my dear neighbour, ally, fellow tshirt-shorts-slippers-crumpler friend, chauffeur, and pirate who likes to steal my songs and movies. I'm gonna miss the times when I can just call you up for a meal at Upper East Coast Rd/Parkway (those superb makan times haha), or just to watch a movie; laughing at the most inappropriate times during movies; when we take turns to drive out while the other person navigates; when we'd take the same bus home/out during outings; when you'd come over randomly to watch shows at my house; when we'd make fun of the rest; when we'd be cheapo shits together, going after all the bargains; and of course when you'd listen to all my complaints and nonsense. Wow I didn't realize we did so many things together haha. Actually we don't really meet so often, but at least last time I knew there was someone there I could just call and arrange to meet. Now, she's like 1000 miles away.
I'll really miss her!! Hopefully China won't ban email next, so at least can still talk online haha. But then again, 天下无不散之宴席. She'll be back soon, and WWF will be united again!
On the other hand, now that Jamie's away, Janice going away soon, and the rest all already working, I'm gonna be super lonesome :(( Plus with school sucking so much, I think I might fall into depression soon haha. Ah cannot cannot, I must be positive!
I will have to pull my heart away 'Cos if I never leave I'll ruin yesterday
"We laugh and laugh, and nothing can ever be sad, no one can be lost, or dead, or far away: right now we are here, and nothing can mar our perfection, or steal the joy of this perfect moment."
- Audrey Niffenegger, "The Time Traveler's Wife"
It's probably been overquoted, but it's still true and means everything. Especially during the past few days :)
3 days into the first week of school, and I already have tons of shit to do. Unfortunately, I don't have the drive or motivation to get started. Argh, why oh why did I ever decide to take up Honours?? Lord, give me the strength to get through the next 2 semesters (or at least the next sem).
A tragedy brings misery Misery loves company Company is misleading
