I think I know why I don't like to study Political Science - the FREAKING readings! The whole stack of them!
At first I thought, "Oh you know, they're just readings. Shouldn't be too much of a problem." I WAS WRONG. Omg. Readings aren't supposed to be pages and pages (and pages and pages and pages..) of indigestible crap. I don't understand why, if those authors can write in Queen's English and write words like 'tautology' (???), they can't put their ideas across in simple English. And the thing is, they go in circles before presenting their main argument (which explains why our readings come in stacks). So sometimes, you have to read a whole paragraph several times before you finally understand what the author is trying to say.
Also, most of the time, the articles tend to contradict each other. I know the lecturer is trying to get us to see a concept from different perspectives, but HOW DO I KNOW WHICH ONE TO BELIEVE IN??
Argh!! I don't know what I'm reading!! And I don't know if I can finish that whole stack in time!
I think I'm destined to be a Business student haha. Can you imagine if I were in Arts? I'd suffocate under all the readings I have to do. So contrary to belief, Arts students aren't slack haha.
[The fact that I'm blogging everyday means something.]
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
Friday, November 16, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
come on, give it a go
Hahah it's the season of complaints again!
HELP.
I can't study. Not at home. But I think that's just an excuse for me to not study at home, you know?
And I keep falling asleep! I don't know why. I think I need coffee.
I need to get a tan after the exams too haha.
COME ON, ADE!! YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS.
We don't know what we're doing but we gotta just give it a go
We gotta just give it a go
HELP.
I can't study. Not at home. But I think that's just an excuse for me to not study at home, you know?
And I keep falling asleep! I don't know why. I think I need coffee.
I need to get a tan after the exams too haha.
COME ON, ADE!! YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS.
We don't know what we're doing but we gotta just give it a go
We gotta just give it a go
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
after the exams
After my exams, I want to:
1) Sleep. ALL I WANT. Without the guilt.
2) Read. No, not my textbooks. I wanna read fiction. I have this whole list of books and authors I wanna check out.
3) Catch up with WWF, PPG, Boran, and f4!! (No they're not boybands.) Oh and the people from church!
4) Get my freaking driver's license. It's taking way too long!
5) Prepare for my trip, ie. buy winter wear, textbooks, make sure I have a place to stay etc.
6) Spend time with my family.
7) Sleep some more.
Haha. That isn't too much right? But first, STUDYYY.
It's all about your cries and kisses
Those first steps that I can't calculate
I need some more of you to take me over
1) Sleep. ALL I WANT. Without the guilt.
2) Read. No, not my textbooks. I wanna read fiction. I have this whole list of books and authors I wanna check out.
3) Catch up with WWF, PPG, Boran, and f4!! (No they're not boybands.) Oh and the people from church!
4) Get my freaking driver's license. It's taking way too long!
5) Prepare for my trip, ie. buy winter wear, textbooks, make sure I have a place to stay etc.
6) Spend time with my family.
7) Sleep some more.
Haha. That isn't too much right? But first, STUDYYY.
It's all about your cries and kisses
Those first steps that I can't calculate
I need some more of you to take me over
Sunday, November 11, 2007
stuck
Ah. Ok, well. It's (supposed) to be mugging season again. Life as a student is bleak. Just when you think all your projects and term papers are over, you realise your exams are looming ahead. SIGH. I feel I just woke up from a nightmare, only to realise I'm in the middle of another nightmare. It's like a nightmare within a nightmare haha.
Anyway, WHERE'S MY SENSE OF URGENCY???
I'm still happily lala-ing away. Like I was out the whole of today, and the only productive thing I did was to finish my Econs tutorial. I need urgency to come back! I need to be more kan cheong!
Oh I just remembered what I wanted to blog about haha. Yesterday, Tony Blair came to NUS to speak about global governance. I watched his speech on NUS webcast, which was quite sad, cuz I really wanted to go but I kinda forgot to sign up till someone reminded me yesterday, and it was already too late. I need to keep my eyes peeled open for events like these, and to learn to take more initiative in such matters, instead of conveniently forgetting about them haha.
He was quite entertaining and humorous. And his ideas were really relevant, like he talked about how interconnected the world is right now, among other stuff like terrorism and climate changes. Oh and how the best way to solve all these problems is to form alliances with each other. I thought it was quite good. Too bad the Q and A session had to be cut short. Haha if only Tony Blair were my Political Science lecturer. I'd go for every lecture man.
Then later that night, I caught the movie 'Lions for Lambs'. It's a political drama by the way, not a cartoon haha. Actually it's more like a documentary cuz it kinda reflects the current sentiment in America regarding the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. I thought that it was quite good, though the ending was quite unsatisfying. You kinda wished there'd be more, but then again, I guess even if there was an ending, it wouldn't really reflect reality. And it'd still be unsatisfying. The dialogue was pretty thought-provoking, though it was quite biased against the current US administration. By the way, the title came about from a quote by a German general during WWI about the British troops, "'Nowhere have I seen such lions led by such lambs." Like the brave ones were being led by the weak and useless.
So there you have it, this is how I spent potential mugging time. But it was worth it la haha. As much as I think politics is interesting, I'd gladly prefer to be politically apathetic, and stay in my own happy bubble. Cuz really, there's no end to it.
And I really really should concentrate on more pressing matters at hand. Like my exams!!! GAHH.
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
Anyway, WHERE'S MY SENSE OF URGENCY???
I'm still happily lala-ing away. Like I was out the whole of today, and the only productive thing I did was to finish my Econs tutorial. I need urgency to come back! I need to be more kan cheong!
Oh I just remembered what I wanted to blog about haha. Yesterday, Tony Blair came to NUS to speak about global governance. I watched his speech on NUS webcast, which was quite sad, cuz I really wanted to go but I kinda forgot to sign up till someone reminded me yesterday, and it was already too late. I need to keep my eyes peeled open for events like these, and to learn to take more initiative in such matters, instead of conveniently forgetting about them haha.
He was quite entertaining and humorous. And his ideas were really relevant, like he talked about how interconnected the world is right now, among other stuff like terrorism and climate changes. Oh and how the best way to solve all these problems is to form alliances with each other. I thought it was quite good. Too bad the Q and A session had to be cut short. Haha if only Tony Blair were my Political Science lecturer. I'd go for every lecture man.
Then later that night, I caught the movie 'Lions for Lambs'. It's a political drama by the way, not a cartoon haha. Actually it's more like a documentary cuz it kinda reflects the current sentiment in America regarding the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. I thought that it was quite good, though the ending was quite unsatisfying. You kinda wished there'd be more, but then again, I guess even if there was an ending, it wouldn't really reflect reality. And it'd still be unsatisfying. The dialogue was pretty thought-provoking, though it was quite biased against the current US administration. By the way, the title came about from a quote by a German general during WWI about the British troops, "'Nowhere have I seen such lions led by such lambs." Like the brave ones were being led by the weak and useless.
So there you have it, this is how I spent potential mugging time. But it was worth it la haha. As much as I think politics is interesting, I'd gladly prefer to be politically apathetic, and stay in my own happy bubble. Cuz really, there's no end to it.
And I really really should concentrate on more pressing matters at hand. Like my exams!!! GAHH.
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
Monday, November 5, 2007
the fever is near
Ok I take back everything I said about being happier when I'm busy. I'm not. In fact, I'm beginning to feel overwhelmed. There are so many things running through my mind, that I can't even concentrate on what I'm really supposed to do (like uhm, study??). I think it's just me. I tend to worry over things beyond my control. And I have no patience. I don't like to sit there and wait for something to happen, even though theoratically, there's nothing I can do to make my situation better. So I complain, and worry, and worry, and worry some more. And then I get depressed. I think I should learn to let go.
Anyway, I don't really know what to do to get myself out of depression. I could sleep, or I could immerse myself in work. Or I could find company (since misery loves company). Are you supposed to feel better if you're surrounded by happy people, or by people who are more miserable than you? Hmm I don't really know. For me, I think I'd rather be around happy people. Cuz at least I have a higher chance of being infected with their happiness. On the other hand, maybe I'll feel worse off, cuz 'what right do they have to be happy, when I'm feeling so miserable here?'. But that's just selfish. Then again, I could pray about it. But I wonder if I have enough faith for it.
I guess what I really need is for someone to reassure me that everything will be alright, and even if we can't solve my problem, at least I'll feel better and stronger to face it. It's even better if I'm able to forget all my troubles for a while, and just live in the moment, whatever or whoever it may be with. Sadly, there aren't many people in my life who have the ability to make me feel better.
It's ironic how those closest to you can't even tell you're unhappy, yet the people you don't see often are able to read your feelings with just one look at your face. Then again, friends don't need to spend a lot of time with each other to be close.
I have a lot of wants. Too many to count, even. But what I really need is to be content with what I already have.
Ok that's enough rambling for today. It's just my time of the month again.
And the internet at home is really cranky. I'll lose my connection whenever there's a thunderstorm haha. And for some reason, I can't download any songs. Pfft.
So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
The fever is near
I wish you were here
Anyway, I don't really know what to do to get myself out of depression. I could sleep, or I could immerse myself in work. Or I could find company (since misery loves company). Are you supposed to feel better if you're surrounded by happy people, or by people who are more miserable than you? Hmm I don't really know. For me, I think I'd rather be around happy people. Cuz at least I have a higher chance of being infected with their happiness. On the other hand, maybe I'll feel worse off, cuz 'what right do they have to be happy, when I'm feeling so miserable here?'. But that's just selfish. Then again, I could pray about it. But I wonder if I have enough faith for it.
I guess what I really need is for someone to reassure me that everything will be alright, and even if we can't solve my problem, at least I'll feel better and stronger to face it. It's even better if I'm able to forget all my troubles for a while, and just live in the moment, whatever or whoever it may be with. Sadly, there aren't many people in my life who have the ability to make me feel better.
It's ironic how those closest to you can't even tell you're unhappy, yet the people you don't see often are able to read your feelings with just one look at your face. Then again, friends don't need to spend a lot of time with each other to be close.
I have a lot of wants. Too many to count, even. But what I really need is to be content with what I already have.
Ok that's enough rambling for today. It's just my time of the month again.
And the internet at home is really cranky. I'll lose my connection whenever there's a thunderstorm haha. And for some reason, I can't download any songs. Pfft.
So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
The fever is near
I wish you were here
Sunday, November 4, 2007
i've had enough of this parade
I'm damn stressed over this exchange thing man. I have a million and one things to settle! And soon!
My air tickets aren't confirmed yet, but I'm hoping to settle them by tomorrow since flights are becoming fully booked very quickly. I haven't settled my housing applications yet, cuz I'm still waiting for the rest of the exchange pple to decide on which hall to apply for. I have an idea of where I want to stay in already, though. But I don't wanna be extra and stay away from them haha. My course mapping is a mess, though I've more or less settled the modules I want to take. I'm just waiting for Jessie from the dean's office to come back so she can approve my modules.
And then there's the issue of visa applications. This is super frustrating man. I have to fill up 234829734 forms, specially get a 50mm by 50mm photo, pay $160 + US$100 in application fees, book an appointment with the US embassy, and do a million other miscellenaous stuff. Shucks. Why is it so troublesome to go the US??
Oh and I have no idea how to go about settling my finances in the US. Everyone tells me different things man! But this isn't so urgent yet.
Plus I'm kinda worried about loneliness, especially since I'm most likely gonna be travelling there on my own. Actually I'm more concerned about losing my way, given that I'm a blur kok when it comes to directions. And the prospect of being away from home for 6 months is daunting. I don't know if I can survive, or if I'll die from homesickness. I guess I'll get used to being away after a while? If Jan can do it, so can I!!
And yeah, I'm never really lonely though I can be alone, cuz I have the Lord beside me :) What I'm really looking forward to is the travelling I may be doing during the hols next year haha. I'm kinda excited about going to see my aunt in Vancouver haha.
BUT, before all of that, I have to remember to STUDY. EXAMS ARE COMING!!
Argh. I don't foresee any time for rest and relaxation coming up soon. Pfft.
I've had enough of this parade
I'm thinking of the words to say
We open up unfinished parts
Broken up it's only love
My air tickets aren't confirmed yet, but I'm hoping to settle them by tomorrow since flights are becoming fully booked very quickly. I haven't settled my housing applications yet, cuz I'm still waiting for the rest of the exchange pple to decide on which hall to apply for. I have an idea of where I want to stay in already, though. But I don't wanna be extra and stay away from them haha. My course mapping is a mess, though I've more or less settled the modules I want to take. I'm just waiting for Jessie from the dean's office to come back so she can approve my modules.
And then there's the issue of visa applications. This is super frustrating man. I have to fill up 234829734 forms, specially get a 50mm by 50mm photo, pay $160 + US$100 in application fees, book an appointment with the US embassy, and do a million other miscellenaous stuff. Shucks. Why is it so troublesome to go the US??
Oh and I have no idea how to go about settling my finances in the US. Everyone tells me different things man! But this isn't so urgent yet.
Plus I'm kinda worried about loneliness, especially since I'm most likely gonna be travelling there on my own. Actually I'm more concerned about losing my way, given that I'm a blur kok when it comes to directions. And the prospect of being away from home for 6 months is daunting. I don't know if I can survive, or if I'll die from homesickness. I guess I'll get used to being away after a while? If Jan can do it, so can I!!
And yeah, I'm never really lonely though I can be alone, cuz I have the Lord beside me :) What I'm really looking forward to is the travelling I may be doing during the hols next year haha. I'm kinda excited about going to see my aunt in Vancouver haha.
BUT, before all of that, I have to remember to STUDY. EXAMS ARE COMING!!
Argh. I don't foresee any time for rest and relaxation coming up soon. Pfft.
I've had enough of this parade
I'm thinking of the words to say
We open up unfinished parts
Broken up it's only love
Friday, October 26, 2007
take me with you
I'm so tired I think I can sleep for a million years. And why do I get the feeling that my troubles are never gonna end?
I thought that after handing up my term paper (not last minute work ok! I finished it 1 day before heh. Damn proud of myself :D), and today's biz comm presentation, I could relax and start trying to get my life back. It's sad cuz I can't really remember how my life was like before all these dumb deadlines started piling up. But I stick to what I've said. That I'd much rather work towards a deadline (and suffer), than to let my mind wander around in idleness.
The next few weeks are gonna be crazy too. It's time to start catching up on my tutorials and start studying for my exams. Sigh. Then after that I have to prepare for my trip already.
Nevertheless, I wished there was something for me to look forward to. I miss the familiarity of old friends. But there's never enough time.
And I hate it when I'm treated as dispensable. I'm not some freaking recyclable object. You can't throw me away then re-use me again when I'm needed.
Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
Take notice, take interest, take me with you.
I thought that after handing up my term paper (not last minute work ok! I finished it 1 day before heh. Damn proud of myself :D), and today's biz comm presentation, I could relax and start trying to get my life back. It's sad cuz I can't really remember how my life was like before all these dumb deadlines started piling up. But I stick to what I've said. That I'd much rather work towards a deadline (and suffer), than to let my mind wander around in idleness.
The next few weeks are gonna be crazy too. It's time to start catching up on my tutorials and start studying for my exams. Sigh. Then after that I have to prepare for my trip already.
Nevertheless, I wished there was something for me to look forward to. I miss the familiarity of old friends. But there's never enough time.
And I hate it when I'm treated as dispensable. I'm not some freaking recyclable object. You can't throw me away then re-use me again when I'm needed.
Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
Take notice, take interest, take me with you.
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