young adults retreat

I'm back from the Young Adults Retreat at JB! Had a great time there, but I'm super duper tired... Even though technically we did sleep every night, as compared to our previous all-nighter camps. I think it's cuz we're all "old" people already. As in the age range over there was from 18-35, not counting the uncle and auntie leaders haha.

We learnt about the differences in perspectives between men and women. Like we had this poll thing where men and women had to vote on different issues. And this quiz testing us on what we know about men, and what they know about us women haha. In the end, it's all about embracing those differences, and at the same time learning to be godly men and women. And I think women nowadays are becoming more like men, in all the wrong ways. Like they think if men can sleep around and have affairs, they can do it. It's disgusting really.

Anyway, I think it's really great to have much older people amongst us, especially those in their mid 30s, cuz you really get to hear a whole different bunch of perspectives. And then you realise you're really lacking in maturity, both spiritually and mentally, and that you still have a long way to grow up. Yup, and I learnt quite alot about relationships also. Some people surprised with their views on this issue also, like they show maturity beyond their age, which is impressive.

We also had this session where we had to brainstorm on ways to improve our young adults community. And I realised we're really lacking in our prayer lives. Not individually, but for each other. So we're not that involved in each other's spiritual lives, and thus we don't get to grow as much as we can. I guess I only started thinking about this, after Shuqi told me about it, and about what she saw among her other Christian friends. And I think I'm lacking in this area also. I don't share very often among my church friends, even though technically we're very close. And most of the time, I'm too selfish or busy to pray for others except myself. I guess this has to stop, and things have to change.

But we had fun too! Like the hilarious skits, games and just everything in general haha. And it was good to get away from all the problems in Singapore. So I hope we'd have more of this fellowships and gatherings next time :)))

On another note, although this week is my term break, I don't think it can really be considered one haha. There are projects to meet for, term papers to research for, tutorials to do, and of course, friends to catch up with! Especially wwf and ppg! And dear Janice, before she flies off. Just hope that I can get enough rest to see me through the rest of the semester.

And it's the same world, honey, that has brought you down,
As the one that's gonna pick you up.

If a guy sings to me like that I'd marry him right away hahah :)

living just to breathe

I'm tired, and my head is throbbing. I wanna sleep but I can't. I wanna watch tv but I can't. I wanna read but I bloody freaking can't. All because of all the stupid tutorials/projects/nonsense I have to do.

I can't help but feel miserable for myself.

I can't even go out properly cuz there'd be a million gazillion things running through my mind. Every week is like some long, uphill climb, only that there's nothing nice waiting for you at the top. Cuz when you reach the top, there'd only be another steeper, taller hill waiting to be climbed. It's a vicious neverending cycle.

And sometimes I feel that I don't know who I can talk to, as in really talk to. You know there are some pple whom you feel you can trust, but you're not that sure? Or you don't really think they're really interested in listening. Or maybe you've just grown distant from each other. And the silences can become really long, drawn-out and awkward.

I wanna sleep. But there's bloody MA to do. *&*(#&$(*#&!!!

God please grant me rest, patience, perseverance and STRENGTH.

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for

like we were free

Wahaha, I finally got our WWF outing pictures from Jamie!

Yay!

The longer the time we spend with each other...

...the lower our IQ drops.

I think my face looked like crap haha. Damn pimples.

The four musketeers.

Then we decided to kill one off to make it three.

Our future careers.

Old times haha.

Come on and we'll sing, like we were free
Push the pedal down watch the world around fly by us

it could be better

I should learn to mind my own business, and to stop caring about the lives/moods/problems/shit of other people. It'll probably make me a much happier person. Ignorance is bliss, after all. What's theirs is theirs, and not mine to take up. But I can't pretend I don't know anything, as much as I want to.

Sometimes all I really want is to be left alone.

I can't seem to get myself out of this rut. Or maybe I just need other people in my life.

'How's your day?'
It could be better
If you'd care to fix another.

flower show riots

I'm in one of my blah moods now. The one where I-know-I-should-be-doing-something-but-I'm-content-to-sit-here-and-heck-everything-and-rot. Otherwise known as inertia and procrastination.

One thing I did do is to buy The Great Spy Experiment's debut album, "Flower Show Riots".

It's damn nice. You really cannot tell they're from Singapore, that's how great they are. And it really goes to show how far local music has come. Anyway, go buy it! Support local music!!

You twist when I shout,
In when I'm out,
There when I'm here,
Why do I bother?

would you believe me then

My dog went for his sterilisation today. Poor thing. Anyway, just some pics of him :)

I hate falling sick. I hate blowing my nose every minute, and feel daggers going down my throat everytime I swallow my saliva. It's ironic, cuz sleep is supposed to help you, but my pain intensifies whenever I try to do so haha. Shit, this sucks.

Anyway, my schedule in October is like a nightmare. I feel like crying and/or hyperventilating everytime I look at it. All the essay deadlines and project presentations. I need motivation!

And I've been listening to 'Nsync recently hahha. ("It's tearing up my heart, when I'm with you, but when we are apart I feel it tooooo....") Yes it's embarrassing, and their music videos were downright cheesy. But the music brings back fond memories of my younger (and simpler) days. And come on, you know you can't help but sing along with them wahhaha.

If I promised to change
If I carried the blame
Would you believe me then?