living just to breathe

I'm tired, and my head is throbbing. I wanna sleep but I can't. I wanna watch tv but I can't. I wanna read but I bloody freaking can't. All because of all the stupid tutorials/projects/nonsense I have to do.

I can't help but feel miserable for myself.

I can't even go out properly cuz there'd be a million gazillion things running through my mind. Every week is like some long, uphill climb, only that there's nothing nice waiting for you at the top. Cuz when you reach the top, there'd only be another steeper, taller hill waiting to be climbed. It's a vicious neverending cycle.

And sometimes I feel that I don't know who I can talk to, as in really talk to. You know there are some pple whom you feel you can trust, but you're not that sure? Or you don't really think they're really interested in listening. Or maybe you've just grown distant from each other. And the silences can become really long, drawn-out and awkward.

I wanna sleep. But there's bloody MA to do. *&*(#&$(*#&!!!

God please grant me rest, patience, perseverance and STRENGTH.

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for