Hello July!

Wow 2 weeks have passed by soo quickly! Europe still feels like a dream though haha. I feel like someone pressed the "Pause" button in my life on 20 May, then pressed the "Play" button on 13 June.

But it's not like I've been doing anything productive, apart from sending in the occasional job application or going for interviews (sadly I'm still very unemployed), since I was back haha. Oh last week we (me and my fellow unemployeds) made carbonara and financiers ("fee-nong-see-yer")! Awesome stuff haha! Oh and I've finished Season 1 of "Glee". I can't believe I've turned into a "Gleek" haha. But actually if you can ignore the shallow and cliched storyline, the songs and talented cast are reallllyy good! It's the kinda show where you can leave your brains at the door and just have fun haha. Now I'm halfway through "The Good Wife", an exciting legal drama. All politics and manipulation, amidst riveting cases hoho. It makes me want to be a lawyer haha.

Aye some upsetting stuff happened too. All I have to say is that I guess I sort of brought it upon myself because it was my decision and my choice, so I have to live with the consequences. Some things just cannot be compromised no matter how easy the alternative seems to be. Of course I have thought about taking the other way, but even if it might have made me happier, I know it will just be for a while and the long term result will not end well. I was fine before this started, and I will be fine (I already am) after. All I have to do is let go of my worries and trust in God's promises for me, cuz He will never shortchange me :)

" 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' " - Jeremiah 29:11

So yeah, this verse has been a great source of comfort.

Anyway, I dunno how time went by so quickly. Next week's the Commencement ceremony already! I dunno why they call it "commencement" though. Cuz I'm commencing on a new phase in life? But anyway it's scary that I'm now supposed to be a working adult. I don't wanna work. But I want a job (and money)! So how?

The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.