nothing else will do

On one hand, I can't wait to leave this place, cuz it means finishing my exams, and starting my holiday (California!). On the other hand, I can't bear to leave cuz I'd miss everything here.

So I was talking to Alex about this, and he said, "The good life is what you enjoy, not what you leave behind." Cheem hor. Anyway his explanation is: "I have good times here, when it is over, it is over. But there were good times. But everyone one moves on. And I move on too, for more good times ahead like everyone else. We might or might not reunite for good times again but whatever. We had good times in the past. Sadness is just after the good times end. After that, it is good to know that it happened. That's that."

Which is true. There's no point holding on to the past, we all gotta move on. The more I think about the past, and how I wish I could reclaim them, the more miserable I'm gonna get. I need to live in the moment, and not "what was/could have been". It doesn't mean that I have to lose my memories, but rather that I hang on to them for what they are, instead of constantly moping that I can't relive them again.

Then again, I don't know if I miss the good times, or the people that contributed to them. Cuz I find it hard to be emotionally attached to someone I've only known for 4 months haha. Unless we share alot with each other. Ah, I don't know la. I'll deal with the situation again when it comes in 2 weeks.

For now, I have to start mugging for my exams! My first paper is this Thurs haha. Crap. I can't seem to run away from exams, no matter how far away I am. I can run away from studying for them though ahaha. And I have to start packing rahhh.

Oh, by the way, we were over in San Antonio this weekend (Fri and Sat only, actually). The place is seriously like Mexico man. All the Latinos. But I had lotsa fun! We saw the historic sites like the Alamo and the Missions, visited the Mexican market, and watched the Fiesta parade. Did some shopping at the outlet mall also haha. And I DRANK COFFEE TODAY. Oh, FYI, I've been on an anti-coffee strike for the past 18 days cuz I was trying to wean myself off of my caffeine addiction. But I gave in today, cuz of the lack of sleep, and the need for energy. NOO. I have no principles!! This is bad.

Anyway, ok I'm going to sleep. Mugging commences tomorrow.

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you