what hols?

I'm still wondering why I ever agreed to work this hols. Ya, like the day before my first day of work right. Or rather, my first half-day. Even though my boss agreed to let me take time off during work for CP meetings and stuff, it doesn't make me feel any better whenever I need to ask for leave.

Plus there's CP and Brandstorm to do this hols. Not to mention, lotsa nua-ing to accomplish. I must think I'm some super woman who's adept at balancing so many tasks. WHAT WAS I THINKING. Nevermind, I shall rise to the challenge!! Ah well, I do need the money. But is money a strong enough motivation?? And how can it be my only motivation?? I know, I'm pathetic.

I hope I can work from home more often this time :S So I don't have to wake up so early haha. After one whole sem of 3am/10am days, I don't know if I can adjust well to a 8am alarm.






You and me
Always between the lines

only in level 4

How on earth am I supposed to cram out 15 pages of essay when I don't even know how to do my introduction??

I hate level 4 modules. But I can't deny that they're really different.

For example, only in MKT 4415 do you get to literally cut and paste SWOTs onto foolscap. So you have sticks of glue and scissors being passed around class during the exam haha. Meanwhile your prof is happily taking photos of you struggling to finish writing in time. Cool.

MNO 4313B is the best:
1) We hand up 2% assignments on Hari Raya and museums.

2) The prof explains the origins and proper technique of using chopsticks during class. And writes and explains Chinese words on transparencies.

3) The prof demonstrates tai-chi in class. And makes everyone stand up to practise "7 Head-to-Toe Exercises".

4) We sing "阿里山的姑娘" and a whole range of international folk songs during the class. Then for the grand finale, we hold hands and sing "Auld Lang Syne".

5) We watch videos (from the 1980s, with the big shoulder pads and glasses) on stress management techniques.

6) And we have to submit 15-paged project papers, in addition to doing an 8 minute individual presentation.

7) All in accordance with the prof's philosophy of "teach less to learn more". He teaches less, but I don't learn much.

I can't wait to see what next sem's module has in store.

So another friend has left to pursue greener pastures. With everyone else working, I'm like the only noob student left. I don't know whether to look forward to, or dread graduation.

Sometimes I feel anti-social. I'm content to wander around alone, or stay at home with a book. I'd rather be with a small group of close friends, than be with a big group of people.

Anyways, I'm really thankful for friends whom I can share my struggles with, who totally understand, and who instead of agreeing with everything I say, actually help me to see what's really important and readjust my priorities. Everyone needs friends like that around them haha.

Whether full or empty it's all the same
It's so easy to see, everyone can agree, you're not to blame

here. and now.

I need coffee to read case studies on coffee.

Le test de francais was tres horrible (I can't type accents or "c"s with the little tails on my laptop). The listening comprehension was incomprehensible, like watching a French movie without the subtitles because you're supposed to fill them in yourself. And the oral test was a case of the blind leading the blind, with me and my partner happily oblivious to our glaring grammatical mistakes. Sad.

Sometimes when I do remarkably well/poor, wayyy above/below my (subpar) expectations, I wonder if it was the same person who did all these things. Like, "WHO is this person?? I for sure couldn't have possibly done this." Random thought.

Suffice to say, I love French, but I don't think I'll be taking French 2 next sem.

I can't wait for this week to be overrrr. Case exam on Thursday! And hopefully after that I won't have to see another case again, ever. 13 cases in 1 sem - sounds like a reality tv show right haha. ("The Amazing Race - 13 countries, 1 million dollars")

And after that, it's 15 pages in 1 week for MNO Culture. Single-spaced. O mon dieu.

Oh, I don't know
What I do know is we're Here and it's Now

O glorious weekend, where hath thou goneth?

One day I shall finish Shakespeare, but in the meantime there's Brym and Lie.

It's always nice to have visiting relatives cuz then you'd be able to go out for nice dinners 3 nights in a row. And get fat. And neglect your homework. Good times.

I don't know whether I should go back to work for my ex-boss in PR this coming break. For one, there's the opportunity to earn some money. It's a new company too, so there's a whole new set of clients. And I know what she's like so there's the learning curve already. But then again, I'm worried she'll make me do the same things I did during my internship, and I remember I wasn't particularly too happy then. And there's the commitment issue, especially with CP and all. It's time to take CP out of cold storage.



A song like this usually makes me wanna pick up piano again. But no, never classical music.

Something I've been pondering about the past few weeks: Do the things I do in my life give it meaning, or is it only because I find meaning in those things? Are both even the same? And where is God in all of this?

"Being like Jesus is not about keeping the rules, going to church, and tithing. It's about knowing His forgiveness, and committing acts of grace and mercy on a consistent basis. It's about living a life that values all people. And it's about having a heart of full surrender to the will of our Father."

How many times have I thought like that?

"And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again." - 2 Corinthians 5:15

When this wild world
Is a big bad hand
Pushing on my back
Do you understand?

her morning elegance

I wish I could live my whole life in bed too.

Did you know that in France, you wish someone luck by saying "merde" which means "shit" in English. For example:

"Hey, merde." "Thanks." and

"I wish you merde."

You have to love the French.

I like my awesome new earphones. They cut off all background noise, and I constantly feel like I'm in a silent film, plus I'm able to sleep more soundly on the bus.

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears

these words get overused.

My motivators each week:
1) TGIF. Friday!
2) Whatever meetup I have on Friday. It doesn't matter who it's with, as long as I'm away from home/school.
3) Shows: ANTM (with Kaishi, my reality tv buddy haha), Amazing Race, Fringe, HIMYM, BBT, Grey's Anatomy. It's sad that I derive much joy from fiction.
4) Sleeeeep. My sleeping habits are extremely warped, it's scary. I need to readjust during the hols :S

"(500) Days of Summer" was way better than I had imagined (it helped that the male lead was believably charming). It's a realistic portrayal of relationships, I feel. And although it didn't technically have a happy ending, at least it was hopeful. As best summarized by Nina:

"its like love, one min u staunchly believe tt u are in love with this one person for ever. u believe he/she is the one. u think once u've missed him/her u can never ever find someone like him/her. u think its the end bcos true love comes only once in a lifetime and once u missed it, its gone forever. u are willing and prepared to spend the rest of ur life with this one special person who brought light and laughter into ur otherwise gloomy, mundane, boring, life. u never knew tt life could b so much more until he/she showed up miraculously in your life on that one fateful day. u believe in fate and destiny, and possibly miracles and love. u think fate brought u and him, u and her together from millions of strangers. u think u finally found ur soulmate, and u know he loves u too. u thank god for sending someone this amazing to you and u can't ask for more.

n the next min, u realise tt its all fake. ur heart is ripped apart n u feel like a fool. u wonder if u can ever adapt to singlehood and u will never look at man/woman in the same way again. and then u pray to god for someone better to come into you life. u look at ur friends who are happily married or attached and while u truly feel happy for them, u wonder if there is any truth in it. u feel like giving up but nonetheless u don't, bcos its innate in us to dream and hope and remain as a die-hard romantic. u meet different pple and they come and go. each one u think there's mayb a chance until u pick up something and strike him off ur 'plausible' list. u wonder n u ponder. n u wait. n u wait somemore.

for what else is there left to do?

and all these love ideas we get are largely from fictional sources. novels, films, dramas, songs, poems. either from hardcore romantics or the disillusioned skeptics. For someone lying in between will not fall into our black and white area. we want something definite and consistent. we want "i love you "( forever in fine prints). n we want "for me, there is only you" (vice versa in smaller fonts). No 'buts". Regardless is the word. this is why we love promises. its proof. its affirmation. its evidence. its something we can hang onto. its belief.

and for someone, or anyone who says tt they dont believe in love. it is the pride tt is in the way.

there is no need to be embarrassed, or feel foolish, naive.

for love is real, and its here.

Isn't it?"

I think we'll never know what we want until we have it. And well, (romantic) love and happiness are subjective. Comparisons shouldn't be made. And who says you need one to have the other?

I know you feel it, too
These words get overused
When we get up and over it and over them

LINKS is an amazing exercise in futility. It's like nothing you ever do is enough. But it's ok, one more quarter and we're done! It's do or die. But then again, I can't think of anything more we can do. LINKS exists in an illogical parallel universe.

I hate it when I'm sitting in class and I don't understand what's going on even though I'm paying attention. It makes me feel stupid (and wonder how I ever qualified for Honours).

Embarrassingly Bad Driving Incident #3298472987 was well, embarrassingly bad. I'm still waiting for the financial assessment of the damage, as if I'm not broke enough :( But I'm really grateful for the perfect timing of friends, and their assurance that nothing will happen "if you drive at 60km/h" haha :) And thinking back, it really was quite funny. Like rag all over again ("are you sure this part fits here?"). I should've taken a picture haha. But of course during that time I was literally freaking out.

Hello Sociology my friend, we finally meet after half a semester. I think you need a really really open mind to fully comprehend sociology, and think sociologically (whatever that means). It's like having a bird's eye view of society. Plus it's hard to be open when there are quite a few morally grey areas.

Assignments are da bomb. One pagers and essays about museums. Booomz!

Oooh, look at my candy store! I've got gummy bears + Fizzy Fish (thanks shuqi!), Ricolaaaa, and mints! My mugging rations hoho.

It's so easy to ask for everything you want, but so hard to be grateful for things that actually happen especially if they aren't what you had in mind. Then when you look back, you realize how much of an ingrate you were because things turned out way better beyond what you could even imagine. All you had to do was wait :) It may sound confusing, but it makes perfect sense.

But no one is asking so leave it alone
Leave it alone