waiting for

I'm paying the price for my procrastination. I just hope it's not too big a price to pay.

But curiously, I don't really regret all those time wasted. Or maybe not yet.

23 is a big number that I'm not sure if I can live up to. It means bigger responsibilities and expectations. Yet here I am, wholly content with my underachieving self.

Argh. I hate thisssss. But if I survive this I know I can survive anything.

And I'm waiting for the day
What am I waiting for?

april's fool

I have achieved the pinnacle of slack-titude!

I really need to push myself harder to do things I don't wanna do (hint: starts with "C", ends with "P"). Sigh. But oh man, what have we brought upon ourselves?? This boring BORING project about a company that doesn't really seem to have any issues (or at least any that they want us to know about).

I'm tired from doing nothing. Well, not really nothing if you count driving around the Central-South area of Singapore, getting lost and doing several illegal U-turns haha.

Oh it's April Fool's Day. Or rather, I'm April's fool because I didn't think it'd come so quickly.

I count the steps from where I am
To where I started
I would have let you
I would have let you leave

Why oh why did I decide to take Intro to Lit Studies??

I thought I could translate my love for reading into grades, but I only just realized my love is shallow. What sounds nice and insightful does not mean it's easy to analyse or write about. Like form, rhymes, rhythm?? What talking you??

Like that means like that la, what you want?! How am I supposed to know what the poet is trying to say?

Conversation of the week:

Pauline says:
doing other modules' work makes me feel like im cheating on CP
adelyne. says:
cp is like the neglected wife, while we go around cheating with other modules haha
Pauline says:
HAHA
the other modules are the mistresses
hahahah
adelyne. says:
hahah it's time to go back to our first love!
not really love
but no choice
Pauline says:
haha
forced marriage
adelyne. says:
can divorce after april haha
Pauline says:
hahaha
ya
tsk
adelyne. says:
we're pathetic hahah
Pauline says:
yes

Welcome to my sad sad life. I can't wait for April to be over (even though it's my birthday month) (and March isn't even over yet right)!

You're like an old perfume
That brings back memories
That old, forgotten tune
That I now recall

procrastination, dear old friend of mine

I think giving yourself deadlines for work is like setting New Year resolutions. You never get round to doing them, despite the lofty ideals you had in the first place. Of course, when the REAL deadlines loom nearer, you have no choice but to dig deep and just pia.

But in the meantime, watching shows online/on TV will do.

The story of my life.

I think procrastination should be included in the "Deadly Sins". Or maybe it's under "Slothery" (is that a word? Slothiness? Slothy?). The point is, it is deadly. But I can't control myself!!

And if my heart should somehow stop
I’ll hang on, to the hope
That you’re not too late

After CNY, comes CP. No surprise there haha.

What I really need now is balance in everything, from my responsibilities and obligations to my emotions.

Taking things one step at a time has never been more important. That goes the same for my walk with God.

But I'm grateful for every little accomplishment/crossed hurdle along the way :)



Well, I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you

CNY with so many dietary restrictions is not CNY.

I'm at home drowning in self-pity and misery while my family is out having fish head curry :( Not that I can't join them, just that there's no point in looking at people eat food you can't eat.
I hate this.

Hives + cramps + CP = Emo elmo and "Why-is-this-happening-to-me??"

Or it could just be PMS. Rahhh.

Lord, I need Your comfort and peace of mind.

So don't go away,

Say what you say,

Say that you'll stay,

Forever and a day

hive-d

Misery comes in the form of hives.

Don't know what they are? I didn't know till last night, when it turned me into a panicking wreck.

"Urticaria, also known as hives, is an outbreak of swollen, pale red bumps or plaques (wheals) on the skin that appear suddenly -- either as a result of the body's adverse reaction to certain allergens, or for unknown reasons." -WebMD

I can confirm that they're damn gross. And it's true that sometimes no one knows why they come about. They're sneaky and mysterious, like they'd suddenly appear in one area then disappear and re-appear elsewhere. It's making me paranoid cuz I keep checking for new spots haha. I just hope I'd get better before CNY :(

On the good side, it gives rise to funny conversations like this:

adelyne.
now much better, except will still have random patches here and there
no one knows what i'm allergic to haha
and like the patches will come and go, like will suddenly appear in 1 spot then disappear and appear elsehwere
make me paranoid lor, cu zi keep checking for new spots haha
and i think will take a few days to fully recover :(

huajia
)))
i read "cu zi"
i thought you take off your pants every now and then to check for new patches
HAHAHA
i read as ku zi

adelyne.
hahahaha!!!
well i do that too
but you werent supposed to know

huajia
HAHAHHAH
((()))
i help you check?

Well, I'll just treat it as another one of God's freak acts of nature haha.

Heart skipped a beat
And when I caught it you were out of reach
But I'm sure, I'm sure
You've heard if before