oh here it goes again

I'm back to complain about work again. Sorry la, I can't complain on fb or msn cuz my boss might see :(

I MISS those days when I didn't have a care in my mind. When I could sleep however late I want, and wake up at lunch time for all I care. When the most important thing I had to worry about was where to go/who to meet. Now, my mind is either revolving around work (the immense load waiting for me everyday), or projects (another gigantic burden on my shoulders), or both. It's like my mind never had a chance to rest after twirling around the entire semester. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE MY DARN HOLIDAYS.

But what to do, I brought this all upon myself. And it's too late to turn back now. At first it was supposed to be about earning some extra $$ for grad trip, but now it looks like my grad trip might not even happen at all :( So not worth it. Note to self: Money should never be the only reason to work when you have every opportunity to slack at home.

This is the first time I've actually forgotten that it's Christmas! And I haven't written any xmas cards!! Sooner or later, I'm gonna lose this tradition. But well Christmas is not supposed to be about that warm fuzzy feeling, but more about reflecting/celebrating Christ's birth.

Seeing all those elderly people hobbling to the stage (most had to walk with canes) to get baptised during today's Hainanese service was really touching. Even though most of them were evidently not strong enough to kneel, they still did so. It's like their love for Christ is so strong that they were willing to go the whole distance in spite of their physical weaknesses. And it's really good to see the joy on their faces after being baptised. It makes me feel ashamed of those times when I've complained about serving in church. If these elderly could find it in them to make the extra step to accept Christ, what more myself, a young and able person? It's also a good reminder that we don't have to do alot to be close to Christ, we only need a willing heart :)

Ok maybe I shouldn't be complaining so much. The most I can do is to try my best to get through this period. There's a reason why the Lord opened the door to this job (no matter how painful it might be). And in spite of the hardship, there's still plenty to be learnt. Something good will come out of this. Most importantly I shouldn't forget who's got my back in all this! :)

Just when you think you're in control,
Just when you think you've got a hold,
Just when you get on a roll,
Oh here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.

I'm sick again. Irritating irritating irritating!!!

I think I can't balance work and projects. I'm not meant to multi-task. I can facebook while working, but I can't do 2 "work-s" at one time. It's tiring and it's driving me mad. All I want to do is watch TV shows, and sleep in. I don't even have time to be lazy anymore. Excuses, excuses.



There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do

Out of the goodness of his heart (and maybe pity), my bro lent me the use of his super powerful laptop for the month of December :D Oh the joy of a speedy computer without constantly being disrupted by frequent hangs, or having to wait 5 secs just to change windows. I hate the thought of going back to my ol' Fujitsu once the new sem starts :S I think this comic really summarizes how I feel towards my computer haha.

So work has been well..TIRING. I do PR (public relations) in the day, and PR (project research) at night. Good times. So far I've even made a few stupid mistakes here and there argh. After one whole sem writing 15 page reports, I don't think I'm capable of flowery descriptive vocabulary anymore. Nvm, 4 more weeeekssss. The good thing is that I sleep early and wake up even earlier. I even managed to wake up at 7am to go cycling today!

Speaking of which, today was really fulfilling although really early mornings are a pain. I'm surprised so many of us managed to make it for our 8am cycling trip :) And it was fun! Leisurely cycling (as opposed to going as far as possible, then chionging like mad to return the bikes on time) rocks. Then after that we went to this Penguin (the publisher) book sale at Singapore Expo and I got like 8 books for $41. Like totally worth it la, considering a book typically costs at least $17 outside.

So I'm still really tired (even after an afternoon nap) and really dreading work :(

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name

what hols?

I'm still wondering why I ever agreed to work this hols. Ya, like the day before my first day of work right. Or rather, my first half-day. Even though my boss agreed to let me take time off during work for CP meetings and stuff, it doesn't make me feel any better whenever I need to ask for leave.

Plus there's CP and Brandstorm to do this hols. Not to mention, lotsa nua-ing to accomplish. I must think I'm some super woman who's adept at balancing so many tasks. WHAT WAS I THINKING. Nevermind, I shall rise to the challenge!! Ah well, I do need the money. But is money a strong enough motivation?? And how can it be my only motivation?? I know, I'm pathetic.

I hope I can work from home more often this time :S So I don't have to wake up so early haha. After one whole sem of 3am/10am days, I don't know if I can adjust well to a 8am alarm.






You and me
Always between the lines

only in level 4

How on earth am I supposed to cram out 15 pages of essay when I don't even know how to do my introduction??

I hate level 4 modules. But I can't deny that they're really different.

For example, only in MKT 4415 do you get to literally cut and paste SWOTs onto foolscap. So you have sticks of glue and scissors being passed around class during the exam haha. Meanwhile your prof is happily taking photos of you struggling to finish writing in time. Cool.

MNO 4313B is the best:
1) We hand up 2% assignments on Hari Raya and museums.

2) The prof explains the origins and proper technique of using chopsticks during class. And writes and explains Chinese words on transparencies.

3) The prof demonstrates tai-chi in class. And makes everyone stand up to practise "7 Head-to-Toe Exercises".

4) We sing "阿里山的姑娘" and a whole range of international folk songs during the class. Then for the grand finale, we hold hands and sing "Auld Lang Syne".

5) We watch videos (from the 1980s, with the big shoulder pads and glasses) on stress management techniques.

6) And we have to submit 15-paged project papers, in addition to doing an 8 minute individual presentation.

7) All in accordance with the prof's philosophy of "teach less to learn more". He teaches less, but I don't learn much.

I can't wait to see what next sem's module has in store.

So another friend has left to pursue greener pastures. With everyone else working, I'm like the only noob student left. I don't know whether to look forward to, or dread graduation.

Sometimes I feel anti-social. I'm content to wander around alone, or stay at home with a book. I'd rather be with a small group of close friends, than be with a big group of people.

Anyways, I'm really thankful for friends whom I can share my struggles with, who totally understand, and who instead of agreeing with everything I say, actually help me to see what's really important and readjust my priorities. Everyone needs friends like that around them haha.

Whether full or empty it's all the same
It's so easy to see, everyone can agree, you're not to blame

here. and now.

I need coffee to read case studies on coffee.

Le test de francais was tres horrible (I can't type accents or "c"s with the little tails on my laptop). The listening comprehension was incomprehensible, like watching a French movie without the subtitles because you're supposed to fill them in yourself. And the oral test was a case of the blind leading the blind, with me and my partner happily oblivious to our glaring grammatical mistakes. Sad.

Sometimes when I do remarkably well/poor, wayyy above/below my (subpar) expectations, I wonder if it was the same person who did all these things. Like, "WHO is this person?? I for sure couldn't have possibly done this." Random thought.

Suffice to say, I love French, but I don't think I'll be taking French 2 next sem.

I can't wait for this week to be overrrr. Case exam on Thursday! And hopefully after that I won't have to see another case again, ever. 13 cases in 1 sem - sounds like a reality tv show right haha. ("The Amazing Race - 13 countries, 1 million dollars")

And after that, it's 15 pages in 1 week for MNO Culture. Single-spaced. O mon dieu.

Oh, I don't know
What I do know is we're Here and it's Now

O glorious weekend, where hath thou goneth?

One day I shall finish Shakespeare, but in the meantime there's Brym and Lie.

It's always nice to have visiting relatives cuz then you'd be able to go out for nice dinners 3 nights in a row. And get fat. And neglect your homework. Good times.

I don't know whether I should go back to work for my ex-boss in PR this coming break. For one, there's the opportunity to earn some money. It's a new company too, so there's a whole new set of clients. And I know what she's like so there's the learning curve already. But then again, I'm worried she'll make me do the same things I did during my internship, and I remember I wasn't particularly too happy then. And there's the commitment issue, especially with CP and all. It's time to take CP out of cold storage.



A song like this usually makes me wanna pick up piano again. But no, never classical music.

Something I've been pondering about the past few weeks: Do the things I do in my life give it meaning, or is it only because I find meaning in those things? Are both even the same? And where is God in all of this?

"Being like Jesus is not about keeping the rules, going to church, and tithing. It's about knowing His forgiveness, and committing acts of grace and mercy on a consistent basis. It's about living a life that values all people. And it's about having a heart of full surrender to the will of our Father."

How many times have I thought like that?

"And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again." - 2 Corinthians 5:15

When this wild world
Is a big bad hand
Pushing on my back
Do you understand?