these words get overused.

My motivators each week:
1) TGIF. Friday!
2) Whatever meetup I have on Friday. It doesn't matter who it's with, as long as I'm away from home/school.
3) Shows: ANTM (with Kaishi, my reality tv buddy haha), Amazing Race, Fringe, HIMYM, BBT, Grey's Anatomy. It's sad that I derive much joy from fiction.
4) Sleeeeep. My sleeping habits are extremely warped, it's scary. I need to readjust during the hols :S

"(500) Days of Summer" was way better than I had imagined (it helped that the male lead was believably charming). It's a realistic portrayal of relationships, I feel. And although it didn't technically have a happy ending, at least it was hopeful. As best summarized by Nina:

"its like love, one min u staunchly believe tt u are in love with this one person for ever. u believe he/she is the one. u think once u've missed him/her u can never ever find someone like him/her. u think its the end bcos true love comes only once in a lifetime and once u missed it, its gone forever. u are willing and prepared to spend the rest of ur life with this one special person who brought light and laughter into ur otherwise gloomy, mundane, boring, life. u never knew tt life could b so much more until he/she showed up miraculously in your life on that one fateful day. u believe in fate and destiny, and possibly miracles and love. u think fate brought u and him, u and her together from millions of strangers. u think u finally found ur soulmate, and u know he loves u too. u thank god for sending someone this amazing to you and u can't ask for more.

n the next min, u realise tt its all fake. ur heart is ripped apart n u feel like a fool. u wonder if u can ever adapt to singlehood and u will never look at man/woman in the same way again. and then u pray to god for someone better to come into you life. u look at ur friends who are happily married or attached and while u truly feel happy for them, u wonder if there is any truth in it. u feel like giving up but nonetheless u don't, bcos its innate in us to dream and hope and remain as a die-hard romantic. u meet different pple and they come and go. each one u think there's mayb a chance until u pick up something and strike him off ur 'plausible' list. u wonder n u ponder. n u wait. n u wait somemore.

for what else is there left to do?

and all these love ideas we get are largely from fictional sources. novels, films, dramas, songs, poems. either from hardcore romantics or the disillusioned skeptics. For someone lying in between will not fall into our black and white area. we want something definite and consistent. we want "i love you "( forever in fine prints). n we want "for me, there is only you" (vice versa in smaller fonts). No 'buts". Regardless is the word. this is why we love promises. its proof. its affirmation. its evidence. its something we can hang onto. its belief.

and for someone, or anyone who says tt they dont believe in love. it is the pride tt is in the way.

there is no need to be embarrassed, or feel foolish, naive.

for love is real, and its here.

Isn't it?"

I think we'll never know what we want until we have it. And well, (romantic) love and happiness are subjective. Comparisons shouldn't be made. And who says you need one to have the other?

I know you feel it, too
These words get overused
When we get up and over it and over them

LINKS is an amazing exercise in futility. It's like nothing you ever do is enough. But it's ok, one more quarter and we're done! It's do or die. But then again, I can't think of anything more we can do. LINKS exists in an illogical parallel universe.

I hate it when I'm sitting in class and I don't understand what's going on even though I'm paying attention. It makes me feel stupid (and wonder how I ever qualified for Honours).

Embarrassingly Bad Driving Incident #3298472987 was well, embarrassingly bad. I'm still waiting for the financial assessment of the damage, as if I'm not broke enough :( But I'm really grateful for the perfect timing of friends, and their assurance that nothing will happen "if you drive at 60km/h" haha :) And thinking back, it really was quite funny. Like rag all over again ("are you sure this part fits here?"). I should've taken a picture haha. But of course during that time I was literally freaking out.

Hello Sociology my friend, we finally meet after half a semester. I think you need a really really open mind to fully comprehend sociology, and think sociologically (whatever that means). It's like having a bird's eye view of society. Plus it's hard to be open when there are quite a few morally grey areas.

Assignments are da bomb. One pagers and essays about museums. Booomz!

Oooh, look at my candy store! I've got gummy bears + Fizzy Fish (thanks shuqi!), Ricolaaaa, and mints! My mugging rations hoho.

It's so easy to ask for everything you want, but so hard to be grateful for things that actually happen especially if they aren't what you had in mind. Then when you look back, you realize how much of an ingrate you were because things turned out way better beyond what you could even imagine. All you had to do was wait :) It may sound confusing, but it makes perfect sense.

But no one is asking so leave it alone
Leave it alone

"We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are."

- Meredith, "Grey's Anatomy"

I know I know, I should have been intensely reading "Shopper's Stop" instead. It's really irritating when you know you have a lot to do, but you just can't get started cuz 1) you don't know how to, 2) there are ALWAYS other better things to do (like watching "Grey's Anatomy"), or 3) you just don't want to. Eeks.

The Chain - Ingrid Michaelson

So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore

This term break, I have officially achieved nothing, except to enjoy life to the fullest. Which is the best achievement out of all the 6 recess weeks I've ever had, cuz this is the happiest term break ever haha.

Even the visit to the Peranakan Museum (for school, don't ask) yesterday barely yielded anything. At least I now know Peranakans have a fondness for giant bling, and giant porcelain pots. Being a (an?) NUS student is beneficial because of all the discounts and free entry into museums. Therefore I aim to visit all the museums in Singapore (51 altogether!) before I graduate haha.

I feel like I'm in primary school again, getting the I-don't-wanna-go-to-school-tomorrow syndrome. Especially since F1 increased my travelling time by half an hour. Seriously, what's so nice about seeing a bunch of ugly cars zoom around the track 61 times??

I would like to apply for jobs, but the career services website isn't cooperating :S

	Rosi Golan - Hazy
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am, would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

It's term break! But term break is no break. It just means you have more time to do case studies, assignments and projects. It also gives you time to prepare yourself for hell when school reopens. All the submissions! Surprisingly, this term break is relatively less packed than previous breaks, maybe cuz I have fewer projects.

I've been slacking this past weekend: sleeping, watching shows (Fringe and ANTM!), sleeping, going out, sleeping. Speaking of shows, ANTM's theme this cycle is "petite". Apparently girls my height are considered short in the model industry O.O Tyra Banks must be a towering giant. My favourite shows are starting this week too! "Big Bang Theory" and "How I Met Your Mother"! I'm tempted to start watching other shows too, but I'm afraid I'll just get drawn into the deep dark hole and never return.

Sigh I look at my assignments and feel sad, so I put them away and start slacking again. I think I'll only feel the urgency nearer the end of the week haha. But actually I think I should use this week to get started on my assignments (12-page case study!) and catch up on webcasts :S A student's life is no life.

French tutor: "Dancing iz important! Everyone should dance! Zat's 'ow you release all ze tension and passion in your body, uzzerwise it's released as violence! Ah well, but if you don't dance, then sex works also."

Class: !!!

All of the things I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

school song

(to the tune of "Home")

This is home, truly.
Where I know I must be.
Where projects wait for me.
Where assignments always flow.

This is home, surely.
As my groupmates tell me.
This is where I won't be alone.
For this is where I hate to be home.

- Xie Kaishi

Next week is horrible. Actually every week is horrible, just that next week is gonna be horribly horrible. And I'm starting to feel the effects of my bad sleeping habits urgh.

Live through this and you won't look back

leçon de français

J’apprends le français.

Je parle un peu français.

Je voudrais visite l’Europe.

Je suis fatigué.

J’aime beaucoup dormir.

Je déteste l’étude!!

C’est très difficile. Merde.

That secret that you know
But don't know how to tell