LINKS is an amazing exercise in futility. It's like nothing you ever do is enough. But it's ok, one more quarter and we're done! It's do or die. But then again, I can't think of anything more we can do. LINKS exists in an illogical parallel universe.

I hate it when I'm sitting in class and I don't understand what's going on even though I'm paying attention. It makes me feel stupid (and wonder how I ever qualified for Honours).

Embarrassingly Bad Driving Incident #3298472987 was well, embarrassingly bad. I'm still waiting for the financial assessment of the damage, as if I'm not broke enough :( But I'm really grateful for the perfect timing of friends, and their assurance that nothing will happen "if you drive at 60km/h" haha :) And thinking back, it really was quite funny. Like rag all over again ("are you sure this part fits here?"). I should've taken a picture haha. But of course during that time I was literally freaking out.

Hello Sociology my friend, we finally meet after half a semester. I think you need a really really open mind to fully comprehend sociology, and think sociologically (whatever that means). It's like having a bird's eye view of society. Plus it's hard to be open when there are quite a few morally grey areas.

Assignments are da bomb. One pagers and essays about museums. Booomz!

Oooh, look at my candy store! I've got gummy bears + Fizzy Fish (thanks shuqi!), Ricolaaaa, and mints! My mugging rations hoho.

It's so easy to ask for everything you want, but so hard to be grateful for things that actually happen especially if they aren't what you had in mind. Then when you look back, you realize how much of an ingrate you were because things turned out way better beyond what you could even imagine. All you had to do was wait :) It may sound confusing, but it makes perfect sense.

But no one is asking so leave it alone
Leave it alone

"We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are."

- Meredith, "Grey's Anatomy"

I know I know, I should have been intensely reading "Shopper's Stop" instead. It's really irritating when you know you have a lot to do, but you just can't get started cuz 1) you don't know how to, 2) there are ALWAYS other better things to do (like watching "Grey's Anatomy"), or 3) you just don't want to. Eeks.

The Chain - Ingrid Michaelson

So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore

This term break, I have officially achieved nothing, except to enjoy life to the fullest. Which is the best achievement out of all the 6 recess weeks I've ever had, cuz this is the happiest term break ever haha.

Even the visit to the Peranakan Museum (for school, don't ask) yesterday barely yielded anything. At least I now know Peranakans have a fondness for giant bling, and giant porcelain pots. Being a (an?) NUS student is beneficial because of all the discounts and free entry into museums. Therefore I aim to visit all the museums in Singapore (51 altogether!) before I graduate haha.

I feel like I'm in primary school again, getting the I-don't-wanna-go-to-school-tomorrow syndrome. Especially since F1 increased my travelling time by half an hour. Seriously, what's so nice about seeing a bunch of ugly cars zoom around the track 61 times??

I would like to apply for jobs, but the career services website isn't cooperating :S

	Rosi Golan - Hazy
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am, would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

It's term break! But term break is no break. It just means you have more time to do case studies, assignments and projects. It also gives you time to prepare yourself for hell when school reopens. All the submissions! Surprisingly, this term break is relatively less packed than previous breaks, maybe cuz I have fewer projects.

I've been slacking this past weekend: sleeping, watching shows (Fringe and ANTM!), sleeping, going out, sleeping. Speaking of shows, ANTM's theme this cycle is "petite". Apparently girls my height are considered short in the model industry O.O Tyra Banks must be a towering giant. My favourite shows are starting this week too! "Big Bang Theory" and "How I Met Your Mother"! I'm tempted to start watching other shows too, but I'm afraid I'll just get drawn into the deep dark hole and never return.

Sigh I look at my assignments and feel sad, so I put them away and start slacking again. I think I'll only feel the urgency nearer the end of the week haha. But actually I think I should use this week to get started on my assignments (12-page case study!) and catch up on webcasts :S A student's life is no life.

French tutor: "Dancing iz important! Everyone should dance! Zat's 'ow you release all ze tension and passion in your body, uzzerwise it's released as violence! Ah well, but if you don't dance, then sex works also."

Class: !!!

All of the things I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

school song

(to the tune of "Home")

This is home, truly.
Where I know I must be.
Where projects wait for me.
Where assignments always flow.

This is home, surely.
As my groupmates tell me.
This is where I won't be alone.
For this is where I hate to be home.

- Xie Kaishi

Next week is horrible. Actually every week is horrible, just that next week is gonna be horribly horrible. And I'm starting to feel the effects of my bad sleeping habits urgh.

Live through this and you won't look back

leçon de français

J’apprends le français.

Je parle un peu français.

Je voudrais visite l’Europe.

Je suis fatigué.

J’aime beaucoup dormir.

Je déteste l’étude!!

C’est très difficile. Merde.

That secret that you know
But don't know how to tell

How to tell a Year 1 student from a Year 4 one:

1) Year 1s look fresh. No wonder they're known as "freshmen". They look carefree and innocent (naive).

2) You hear more laughter from the Year 1s.

3) Year 4s have distinct eye bags.

4) Year 1s' conversations usually involve stuff about bus services, school locations, and mostly about getting lost. Year 4s complain about projects, assignments, fyp, projects, assignments, fyp, projects etc.

5) Year 1s are free enough to play poker in school. (Though I once played 8 straight hours of Bridge in Year 2 hoho.)

6) Year 1s tend to give Year 4s looks of horror/fascination once they discover our seniority. Yes, we're seriously endangered, like dinosaurs. But it's amusing.

Haha just some curious observations in school. I think your "Year 1 radar" becomes most accurate when you're in Year 4. Mostly because you're envious of them :( It wasn't so long ago when I was a blur Year 1 myself. Wah but it's scary how fast time has passed :S

So last week, I left school past 8pm for 3 days and had my dinner/supper at 10pm. Nice. Considering that I'm barely 1/3 into the semester. I might have to start renting an apartment near campus soon. Actually I don't mind staying so late, as long as I keep my free day. Those are extremely sacred.

It's good to meet up with friends and trade horror stories about our miserable lives, and try to outdo one another. We make each other feel better about ourselves haha. It's also nice to be able to speak freely and voice your innermost thoughts and opinions, and know you have people who empathise and understand you. After unloading all your crap and burdens, you feel better able to face the world again :)

I feel really guilty for slacking my entire day away yesterday. It was supposed to be one of those rare days where I can spend the whole day clearing work. Instead I was basking in the glorious light of having a day all for myself. Then it's panic! (in the disco) on Sunday and the rest of the week, till next Saturday. It's a horrible cycle.

Ok tata, gotta go transcribe interviews in Chinese. Urgh.

"Through all this ordeal his root horror had been isolation, and there are no words to express the abyss between isolation and having one ally. It may be conceded to the mathematicians that four is twice two. But two is not twice one; two is two thousand times one. That is why, in spite of a hundred disadvantages, the world will always return to monogamy."

- G.K. Chesterton, "The Man Who Was Thursday"



Oh, desire can cause heart attacks
Oh, desire, it won't bring you back