massacred

Yesterday's paper was a massacre!! A murder of mass proportions!

I was happily skipping questions till I realised there weren't any left to skip haha. The only things that were going through my mind were, 'I dunno, I dunno, I DUNNOO!!!' before they gradually turned into a steady stream of vulgarities. How sad and disheartening.

But life goes on. And the exams must continue. The mugging can't stop! Go, Ade, go!

Oh and I'm beginning to develop this unhealthy dependence on coffee. Crap. I need to wean myself off after the exams.

And if it takes shit to make bliss,
then I feel pretty blissfully

maybe we're fools

4 words: BECAUSE I HAVE TO.

#$#*(@&#^*(@!#

There's a certain thrill in going somewhere totally foreign and unfamiliar to you. Well, to me at least. A place where no one knows you, and you can pretend to be someone else, or be yourself, whichever goes. Sigh, such are the small things I find joy in haha.

I don't know if I want my exams to end quickly or not. Cuz once they end, it means I'm leaving already. And I don't know whether to look forward to my departure, or dread it. OMG. As if constantly worrying over whether I can finish studying isn't enough. I worry too much. Mugging only makes everything worse. Mugging turns me into this sad, depressed, and lonely woman. Haha sucks right.

Ugh, I should seriously stay away from the computer. AWAY FROM ME, EVIL MOUSE!!

And maybe we're fools, who knows
Who knows, who knows

humpty dumpty

I think my feelings are in a state of suspension. I'm neither happy nor sad. I just am.

I'm too tired to feel anything I guess. Tired from mugging. This mugging that never ends.

Btw, the show 'Pushing Daisies' is nice. Go watch. After your (my) exams.

All of the king's horses and all of the king's men
Couldn't pull my heart back together again
All of the physicians and mathematicians too
Failed to stop my heart from breaking in two

Cos all I need is you
I just need you
Yeah you got the glue
So I'm gonna give my heart to you

readings!

I think I know why I don't like to study Political Science - the FREAKING readings! The whole stack of them!

At first I thought, "Oh you know, they're just readings. Shouldn't be too much of a problem." I WAS WRONG. Omg. Readings aren't supposed to be pages and pages (and pages and pages and pages..) of indigestible crap. I don't understand why, if those authors can write in Queen's English and write words like 'tautology' (???), they can't put their ideas across in simple English. And the thing is, they go in circles before presenting their main argument (which explains why our readings come in stacks). So sometimes, you have to read a whole paragraph several times before you finally understand what the author is trying to say.

Also, most of the time, the articles tend to contradict each other. I know the lecturer is trying to get us to see a concept from different perspectives, but HOW DO I KNOW WHICH ONE TO BELIEVE IN??

Argh!! I don't know what I'm reading!! And I don't know if I can finish that whole stack in time!

I think I'm destined to be a Business student haha. Can you imagine if I were in Arts? I'd suffocate under all the readings I have to do. So contrary to belief, Arts students aren't slack haha.

[The fact that I'm blogging everyday means something.]

Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head

come on, give it a go

Hahah it's the season of complaints again!

HELP.

I can't study. Not at home. But I think that's just an excuse for me to not study at home, you know?

And I keep falling asleep! I don't know why. I think I need coffee.

I need to get a tan after the exams too haha.

COME ON, ADE!! YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS.

We don't know what we're doing but we gotta just give it a go
We gotta just give it a go

after the exams

After my exams, I want to:

1) Sleep. ALL I WANT. Without the guilt.

2) Read. No, not my textbooks. I wanna read fiction. I have this whole list of books and authors I wanna check out.

3) Catch up with WWF, PPG, Boran, and f4!! (No they're not boybands.) Oh and the people from church!

4) Get my freaking driver's license. It's taking way too long!

5) Prepare for my trip, ie. buy winter wear, textbooks, make sure I have a place to stay etc.

6) Spend time with my family.

7) Sleep some more.

Haha. That isn't too much right? But first, STUDYYY.

It's all about your cries and kisses
Those first steps that I can't calculate
I need some more of you to take me over

stuck

Ah. Ok, well. It's (supposed) to be mugging season again. Life as a student is bleak. Just when you think all your projects and term papers are over, you realise your exams are looming ahead. SIGH. I feel I just woke up from a nightmare, only to realise I'm in the middle of another nightmare. It's like a nightmare within a nightmare haha.

Anyway, WHERE'S MY SENSE OF URGENCY???

I'm still happily lala-ing away. Like I was out the whole of today, and the only productive thing I did was to finish my Econs tutorial. I need urgency to come back! I need to be more kan cheong!

Oh I just remembered what I wanted to blog about haha. Yesterday, Tony Blair came to NUS to speak about global governance. I watched his speech on NUS webcast, which was quite sad, cuz I really wanted to go but I kinda forgot to sign up till someone reminded me yesterday, and it was already too late. I need to keep my eyes peeled open for events like these, and to learn to take more initiative in such matters, instead of conveniently forgetting about them haha.

He was quite entertaining and humorous. And his ideas were really relevant, like he talked about how interconnected the world is right now, among other stuff like terrorism and climate changes. Oh and how the best way to solve all these problems is to form alliances with each other. I thought it was quite good. Too bad the Q and A session had to be cut short. Haha if only Tony Blair were my Political Science lecturer. I'd go for every lecture man.

Then later that night, I caught the movie 'Lions for Lambs'. It's a political drama by the way, not a cartoon haha. Actually it's more like a documentary cuz it kinda reflects the current sentiment in America regarding the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. I thought that it was quite good, though the ending was quite unsatisfying. You kinda wished there'd be more, but then again, I guess even if there was an ending, it wouldn't really reflect reality. And it'd still be unsatisfying. The dialogue was pretty thought-provoking, though it was quite biased against the current US administration. By the way, the title came about from a quote by a German general during WWI about the British troops, "'Nowhere have I seen such lions led by such lambs." Like the brave ones were being led by the weak and useless.

So there you have it, this is how I spent potential mugging time. But it was worth it la haha. As much as I think politics is interesting, I'd gladly prefer to be politically apathetic, and stay in my own happy bubble. Cuz really, there's no end to it.

And I really really should concentrate on more pressing matters at hand. Like my exams!!! GAHH.

And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are